The World Through My Eyes

Tribute To My Late Grandma 3: Her Last Struggles

2012-01-22T01:41:00.001+08:00

The last instalment of my grandma's tribute.. I actually procrastinated for almost a year! Scary..

Tomorrow my family's gonna visit her again.. Time really really flies, with a blink of an eye, 1 and a half years had already past since she left us.. Here are some of what i can remember that happened.. Might be incoherent, but decided that it's better than not journalling it at all...

I didn't feel anything at all when i heard the news from my dad that she got cancer, lung cancer.. And she was already at her terminal stage.. Probably couldn't last for more than 6 months. Couldn't bring myself to believe it.. Somehow felt that it wasn't real.. It was only a few days later that it sinked into me..

At the beginning, things seemed to be going well for her.. She was prescribed medicine and her body seems to be taking in it well. 8 months passed, without any signs of the fatal illness at all..except frequent coughs. Everyone was hopeful and hoped for miracle that she can actually get well..

Until one day, she was admitted to the hospital.. I can't remember the actual reason... But i went to see after work with a bunch of daisies.. I was pretty busy with work then that i didn't visit her for a few months. When i reached there, the first thing i noticed was how thin and frail she was. My grandma had always been a plump, big-sized and strong woman.. I was shocked by the huge difference. When i presented to her my flowers, she immediately beamed with great joy.. Like a little girl receiving presents.. That's how much she loved me and yearning for me to visit her. I was pretty guilty at that point of time, that i didn't visit her as much as she wanted me to. Upon chatting with her, the next thing i noticed was that her voice was barely audible.. She used to speak with great looming voice...

The hospital incident seemed to be the first signal to her ordeal ahead. The next few months happened very quickly as she grew weaker and weaker rapidly day by day. Every week, her body functions would deteriorate by a bit. It was like, this week she was able to walk, the next week she had no strength and need the support of the wheelchair. Two weeks later, she had no strength to stand - we had to lift her when she needs to relieve herself. The following week, she was bedridden. Finally she had no strength to sit or eat, she had to survive via tube-feeding . That was the kind of pace we faced. It was heartbreaking every time we visited her. The only thing i could do is to talk to her, cheer her up, crack jokes with her, despite what i felt.

During her stay at our place, i brought for a walk in her wheelchair below our block, thinking she would like a bit of sunshine after weeks of being confined at home. However her medication made her drowsy easily.. And she fell asleep pretty quickly.

My grandma loved food, and she loved the times my dad brought her to restaurants or coffeeshops to eat zhi char. During her days when she couldn't swallow solid food, only porridge and cereal, she yearned for us to bring her to enjoy good food again. On that day, she whined like a child, wanting us to bring her to the coffeeshop. It was understandable, as she was confined to my aunt's home for few months without having a chance to go out. My dad thought it was very difficult to bring her, since we have to carry her wheelchair two stories down before there's a lift (at that time not all hdb lifts land on every floor), and didn't want to bring her. Thought that she was being wilful and unreasonable, and he wanted to leave for home. At that time, I was pretty angry, here she was, at her final stages and not many opportunities to do what she wanted, all the inconvenience shouldn't matter as much as fulfilling her last wishes. I argued with him and told him i was prepared to bring her on my own even if he doesn't want to.

Finally he relented. We brought her to the nearby coffeeshop. That day it was the first time in days or even weeks, that she seemed stronger and in better health. In fact it was also the first time she actually swallowed solid food! We were surprised that her voice also came out stronger than in the few weeks when she could barely talk. With a voice strong and clear, she told us adamantly, like a child, in a few words in Hokkien, "This is what i liked, I like to eat like this" gesturing everyone in the family, implying that she liked to have meals in a big family setting. And she finished the whole plate of rice with fish, vegetables and even some meat! I knew I made the right decision by going with my heart and fighting for her to have what she wanted.

As i mentioned many times recently in life, i hate regrets, i don't want anyone to have regrets either. I think that's probably the saddest thing in the world - Not trying at all to fight for what you want or what you think is right. In the end, once the moment passed, you'll never ever find out what would have happened, spend your life thinking about what would have happened, or live a life without being truly happy as you know things are not going exactly the way you wanted it to be, that it could have been better if you've acted in time.

I was glad that I had no regrets after my grandma passed away, I knew i had tried my best to accompany her and given her the best in my knowledge to please her and make her last journey comfortable. I spent 2-3 times a week to visit her, talking to her and joking with her as much as I could, updating her about my daily life, hugging her, brought our old photos and reliving to her about the past. Probably my only small regret was that I wasn't with her during her last minutes - she passed away at 4.30pm in the evening, everyone was at work. Only the maid was with her when she left. By then she was already in a state of coma, and left with a sudden last breath before her lungs failed completely. When i reached, her body was already cold, her expression was peaceful though. My tears jus spilled like nobody's business. Later the caretaker came, they simply wrapped her in the big nylon bag roughly and carried her to the truck below to be sent for processing for the funeral. I was so shocked that the grandma i respected and loved so much was treated in such a rough manner... Tears couldn't help but spilled even more..

She was really a strong-willed woman, she fought for survival even until the very end. During her last days when she could no longer talk, and she couldn't even have strength to close her eyelids..She's also starting to see things.. It was really heartbreaking. Don't know if it affects her, but a few days before she left, I told her, "Ah ma, your life has been good so far, nothing for you to worry anymore..."

Gonna visit her later~ :)

Penpal

2011-02-20T18:10:00.003+08:00

I was clearing my drawers today and decided to finally dispose of all old my letters which I haven't gone through over the past few years...

I had a penpal during my primary school days.

She was actually my best friend when I was P5, but later she had to transfer school end of P5 as her family moved to Woodlands (my primary school was in Clementi area).

In order to stay in contact, we started writing to each other then. We created nicknames for each other. She was Thumbelina and I was Cinderella (well I guess Disney was still the trend those days haha). We often update each other about school, family and the challenges we faced. We'll always write our letters on scented or colourful paper, and decorate our letters with little stickers

It was 2-3 exchanges of letters in the first 2 months, then 2-3 exchanges in the next 6 months and finally 2-3 exchanges in a year. That maintained for 7 years, I was shocked to realised it only today.

After that, we met each other at NUS few years back. Was real happy to see her at first, thought we can catch up with old times and everything will be like the old days. But after a few conservations, I realised the feeling was no longer like the past when we readily shared everything together.

I suppose feelings have changed after all these years, and I still felt an overwhelming sense of nostalgia when I think about the old times and read the old letters, but I suppose we all have to move on.

I suippose sometimes being too sentimental and keeping too many items from the past carries too much emotional burden. I read the letters for the last time before I dropped them into the bag.

"I am worried that if I change school, would our relationship change?"
-First Letter from Thumbelina, 13 Nov, 1997

Tribute To My Late Grandma 2: Our Memories

2010-06-03T00:44:00.003+08:00

Somehow today I started thinking about my grandma again, and can't help missing those old days together.

I would never forget how she always treated me like a princess, how she would always saved the chicken drumsticks for me, how she always iron my school uniform for me, comb my hair for me, and even let me share her bed with her.

I would never forget during my kindergarten days, how she brings me to school and fetches me home after school. She would then bathe me, cook simple lunch of porridge with fish, and sometimes Bubor Teriku as dessert.

I would never forget how she would always hold my little hand when we cross the roads, and how she would prepare and help me put on my raincoat when the weather turns dark.

I would never forget how she always give me a bottle of chicken essence for every exam paper I take, how she would always nag at me painstakingly to study hard, so that next time I can work in a comfortable air-con office.

I would never forget how she would always wake up early to iron my school uniform for me, prepare my breakfast for me, dress me up for school and bring me down to wait for the school bus. And she would always wait till I'm safely on the bus.

I would never forget the days when she brought me to the wet market whenever she needed her groceries, and I can tell you, she never fails to buy anything without haggling first. Earning money from her was never easy.

I would never forget how she used to take me to temples to pray for our family's safety, pray for my grades, pray for my dad. And afterwards, she would get the paper charms for us. Some for us to keep, some to burn and the ashes are added in our drinking water, which is supposed to be holy and we would get our prayers answered by drinking it.

I would never forget, especially how she supported me when I've to stay till midnight to finish my Chinese homework (till now I still have phobia of that Zhi Shi Hua Bao). She would promise to accompanied me by staying awake with me. And she would kill time watching her favourite Justice Bao, or sometimes Taiwan variety shows, and most of the time I would end up watching with her and discuss the shows with her. Sometimes when she fell asleep while watching, I would naughtily throw the pillows at her to make sure she kept her promise. She would wake up and chuckle.

I would never forget how I jokingly commented few days before my birthday that $20 was too little for my ang bao, and asked for $50 instead. I soon forgot about it and to my surprise, there really was a $50 note in my bday angbao.

There are so many memories of her.. She was definitely the best grandma any grandchildren would ever wish for, she loved, she cared, she protected, she encouraged and supported, and she's always there whenever she can. I was blessed to have her as my grandma, no one hsa ever loved me the way she does, I'll definitely miss her forever.

To be continued...

Tribute To My Late Grandma 1- Her History

2010-06-02T23:16:00.010+08:00

I had on many occasions wanted to do a post on my late grandmother during the whole of last week but just didn't have the time to do it as we're all busy with her funeral and the documentations here and there. Time passed very very quickly. Quickly she became weaker and weaker, quickly she lost her ability to speak, her muscles... Quickly she left us without a word, quickly her funeral was over, and before I too quickly forget these strong feelings and memories I had for her, I better eternalise them here before they are gone too...

She was a fighter. A strong woman who never say die. However life doesn't seem to go easy on her. She lost her mom when she was barely 2. Her grandmother was very strict on her, scolding and hitting her for every minute mistake she made.

She was born in the 20s, a time when males are hailed and females are condemned. It was then a common trend for parents to only invest whatever little savings they have on their sons, it's a waste of resources for females to go to school, they're expected to help doing household chores instead. She was no exception. While we often find going to school a chore, complained of homework and teachers, she was never allowed to go to school, forbidden to step out of the house.

Japanese occupation came, she braved through that too. She hid from the Jap helicopters by smearing her face dirt, hiding in bushes, and even had to stop her breath when they circled above her and her other friends. There were 2 other close shaves she encountered with the Japs. Once she was hiding in the rice bin, and was caught by one of the soldiers, but luckily at that moment they were called back by their headquarters and she managed to escape. Another time she and 2 other girls were hiding in the house, probably in an attap house. Luck was definitely on my grandmother's side, but not for the other girl. That unfortunate girl was her neighbour and she was very pretty, even though she hid herself well and had covered herself with soot, the Jap soldiers somehow managed to uncover her, and find her attractive. And just like what we read in textbooks and saw in our dramas, they slapped her, tortured her, raped her and then finally silenced her. My grandmother witnessed this whole gruesome episode while she's still hiding in her place, not daring to make a sound.

Life turned better when she met my grandpa later. He was considered well-to-do, worked for the British as a clerk. Not many people knew English back then, and he was one of the rare few. I never knew how they met though, and I probably never will. Probably they knew each other through a matchmaker, or probably they were neighbours, but they did fall in love with each other and had 7 kids of their own, and 2 from my grandpa's previous marriage.

While he worked, my grandma singly took care of all her 7 children and all her household chores. It was not easy to provide all 7 with food, shelter, and education while trying to make ends meet. My dad was their 6th child, and the first son to give them a grandchild, a 内孙 they call it.

That's me.

To be continued...

M1 outing/ Kitaro anyone??

2010-02-07T01:21:00.005+08:00

Just came back from a gathering with people whom I've lost contact since 6 years ago.

My arms a bit stiff now, but tennis had been fun~

The conversations were very entertaining, don't think I've laughed like that for so long.

As everyone shares their accounts, bits and pieces of the past came back, just like going through old photos of our history...

Our days at M1, JH's curtain/bowl hair and of course, our eva favourite Julie... Very memorable indeed... Keep up the good work JH. Enjoyed myself today~ :)

Anyway, on the side note, Kitaro is here for his tour concert!! Anyone interesteD?? So wanted to hear his live concert, but haven't found anyone so far.

Let me know if you are k...

Nite~

My butt hurts like no tomorrow... but I survived.

2010-02-05T00:26:00.005+08:00

YT and I took part in this cycling@night event held by Senja-Cashew CC last Sat.

There were altogether about 170 ppl who participated, plus volunteers and organising comm, journey about 38.3km (though I suspected we did more than 40km), lasted from 8pm all the way till next morning 7am.

Yes you've read correctly, 11 crazy hours on the bike! All the way from Senja to East Coast Park!! Don't ask me why I joined, ~~ask YT~~ I just thought it would be simple cycling event at east coast, perhaps with some social events. And yeah, I'm dead wrong.

It started officially at 10pm, with all the 170 peeps lining up with their bikes, ready to go, everyone excited and all. It's really a grand atmosphere. What's more grand, is that later as we started on the road, there were police excorts leading the way and paving 1 whole lane just for us!! Woohoo.. you'll feel as important as the president sia.

"(the organiser) are friends with the MP is it..." someone from behind commented jokingly in Hokkien.

From Senja, to Bukit Batok, to Jurong, then to McDonald's at West Coast Park, where we had a pit stop with refreshments provided. The night breeze felt great as you ride along the roads. Everything was great at the start.

Not bad...for a young comm like Senja YEC to run this large scale event smoothhly. It's definitely no easy feat to rent more than 100 bikes, to liase with the traffic police, to get Sheng Shiong as sponsor, and also to get Dr Balakrishnan (though I don't remember seeing him at all) as GOH. Pretty impressed.

Ok after the pit stop, we were on the road again, along the road passing by Telok Blangah, Harbout Front and Sentosa, before we had another stop for toilet break.

By then, my legs are pretty tired already, and my butt also became sore after the 2+ hours of ride.

After that pit stop, everything was a blur, I can vaguely remember we stopped at several places for photos, like Esplanade, Fuliton Hotel, and Padang, where the countdown of YOG was held.

After which we made our way non-stop to ECP. At this point, my palms are sore with gripping the bike handle bars, my leg muscles are stiff with all that pumping of pedals (yea, the last time i exercised is actually half yr ago!), and worse of all.. my butt!! It hurts till the point when you dare not lift your butt from the seat, cos you know it'll hurt even more! And... I still barely see anything that looks like ECP.

After some time, we finally see the familiar roads of ECP, and far ahead I ~~finally~~ saw some familiar blinking lights of our fellow cyclists. Relieved and elated that we're nearing our finish line, there was a new-found energy. We cycled right ahead without stopping or slowing, but alas! our relief was short-lived. Those cyclists were merely taking a break, and before long, the blinking lights gets smaller and smaller, just like stars.. you can see them, but no matter how fast you cycle, you can never reach them...

My legs were not really happy about this, and they just refused to cooperate after that. No choice, I had to get down from my bike. (Owww.. my butt)

The break ended pretty soon, as we decided to end the torture quick. Cycle, cycle, cycle... AND WE FINALLY. REACH. THE. BIKE. RENTAL. SHOP!!!

OMG... omg.. my whole body aches like nobody's business, my butt hurts like no tomorrow... But I SurvivED!!! A Milestone has just been created. Woohoo.. yeah a major ONE indeed, cos I'll definitely NOT do it again if god forbids.

All in all, I felt really proud, though it's not like Olympics, not can it be called a marathon, but I'm still proud.. after all I cycled West to East leh, don't play play ah.. =)

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Don't Ask.

2010-01-26T23:56:00.003+08:00

Abuse & Neglect.

Never ever treat anyone you love with either, or even worse, both.

It hurts.

Post with a grumpy note

2010-01-14T12:12:00.004+08:00

Hai, all my colleagues not free today, so i've to cover the recept now.

Well, not too bad, considering i can use tis time to blog and to surf the net.

Haha..

I'm here to complain again!!

Missed last sat's sentosa outing cos i had a fever.

Going to miss this sat's outing cos i've to work.

Going to miss CSC day AGAIN, cos i'm going to Genting with my family. CSC Day seems to clash with my schedule EVERY single year!

ARRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.................

Tiger year is supposed to be my year, but why it started off in such a bad taste? :S

2010~!! Hi I'm bacK!! ... to lament.

2010-01-12T17:04:00.003+08:00

Ok i suppose half year's tribute is more enough huh... LOL..

Anyway happy 2010 to all of you who ever still check my blog to see if i'm alive.

Time flies really quickly, it's Tiger year now, my 2nd cycle already, a few more cycles to go before i ended up in dust. Hai...

Have to scrutinise into what i really want this year, in life i mean, not just this year. Anyway, my wishlist for this year...

1st thing on my list, is my job.

In many ways my job is fine.. the pay is fine, the jobscope can be said to be fine, welfare in terms of employee programmes and other benefits are fine, the people are nice too.. but... i still feel like i'm dragging myself to work everyday, can feel my energy being sapped away sia.

Perhaps it's the nature of the job i'm not passionate about, perhaps it's the age group of people which makes me unclickable (i only click wif special ppl), perhaps it's the burnt wkends i'm concerned about, perhaps it's my declining social life, sleep, and health (i'm sitting 90% of my time now) i'm totally worried about...

Yes perhaps i need a job change. But what kinda job? I need a job with a mix of young and old ~~and preferably lots of hunky guys~~ , a job where i can work as a team with rotating leadership roles, a job where i can do different stuff and learn different things everytime, a job with decent pay, a job where i can make a change to the community AND can see substantial results (not just picking litter/tuition a kid kind). Where does my passion lies and that can follow me through a lifetime? I don't know man. Been asking myself this question plenty of times till i got a headache and yet still no answer. But till i got an answer, i suppose i'm still stuck here. IF any of you have an advice or suggestion, please comment something (also to water my dying comment box).

Secondly, my social life.

The no. of young people i'm interacting with enjoys the same downturn together with the US economy after i left uni. And whatever close friends that remain, also got attached at the same period, and bonding time is now divided by 2 - the boy/girlfriend 90%, friend 10%. :'(

So this year, I hope i can meet more like-minded people whom I can click with, join more activities to know more people, hopefully gain a skill in the meantime.

Hopefully my job schedule allows me to do that.

Thirdly, i want to get my driving lisence this year.

Hopefully before my PDL expires ~~in Feb~~ . oops.

Fourthly(??), develop more good habits, such as exercising regularly.
Need an exercise buddy(ies) for this, anyone?? Weekly badminton/cycling sounds good for me, but try to keep it daytime, or i'll die of exhaustion.

Fifthly, new skills.

Maybe take up dancing once more, or take up 1 water sports course like windsurfing/canoeing/kayaking/wakeboarding etc... Anyone who's interested pls jio me too.

Sixthly, spend more time with family and visiting my grandma.

Seventhly, is to be a better person, treat others better ~~if they deserve it~~. oops. Treat even better those who appreciates. :D

Eighthly, be updated - read more books, watch more news/ read more newspaper...

Ninthly, lose 20 kg (haha, as always)

Tenly, enjoy life at the very moment.:D

What about you? What is it that you want???

- The greatest tragedy in life is to spend your whole life fishing only to discover that it was not fish you were after....- Henry David Thoreau

Remember The Time Of Michael Jackson

2009-06-26T23:05:00.011+08:00

First thing in the morning, i woke up at 6+am... " Michael Jackson has passed away. We have confirmed the pop star Michael Jackson has just passed away..." over and over again the news reporter kept saying, like a spoilt CD player.

I only slept 4 hours, and my dad had to watch Channel Newsasia so early in the morning!! :(( Secondly, one of my favourite pop singer is gone! 2 months ago, I chanced upon one of his songs and I xing xue lai chao, and read his bio on wiki and listen to all of his songs. Then later I heard that he's going to perform at concerts again, I was quite elated that he was going to chong chu jiang hu again after all these years. But as sudden as his return to the music industry, he went off just like that.

Hai... what a waste, I have always loved his songs and his dance moves, especially Moon Walk (of course). I remember when i was in my primary school days, I loved his "We Are The World" and "Heal the World". Would go write down (that time no printer) the lyrics and memorise by heart also.

Then later my parents bought his Dangerous Album, that's when i fall in love with his other titles too, like "Black or White", "Remember the Time" etc etc.. Although I don't really understand what's exactly going on in his personal life, or what he's actually thinking: bleaching himself, going for plastic surgery to look like half-freak, marrying women just because he loves children, makes his children wear veil all the time, displaying his baby by dangling him/her (i can't rem) out of the window sill, or even molesting children (still debatable tho); but his songs and dances really touches the core of my heart.

And despite all his scandals and weird behaviours, you must give him credit for his charitable heart. He donated generously and has raised millions of dollars through his foundation, and some of his songs are also for charity, appealing for a good cause. He regularly brings little children , especially the underprivilleged ones, to his theme park home as well..

In the music industry, he singly changed the pop culture on his own, invented many dance moves that are still popular even today (think moon dance, and robotic dance), no doubt the King of Pop. His songs are also so god damn popular, i think everyone must have heard most of his songs before (many rendtions of his songs by today singers), just that you might not know it's his songs. Ain't no sunshine, i just discovered today, was actually his song too!! He sang that when he was a child.

Will always remember him man.. The greatest music icon of all times.

I kicked on my shin. :'(

2009-06-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hai... Another suey thing happened to me again. While we were making our way to the Hawker centre, we walked through the playground and I was quite engrossed talking my colleague and didn't really see where I was heading.

Until... BanG!

My shin hit on the metal thingy which serves as the balancing-walk obstacle at the playground. Ouch sia... It's damn painful lar.. Sure enough, like what they say, now there's a big patch of blue-black on my shin le sia.. :'(

But the only good thing is that this cute colleague of mine showed his concern by asking how's my leg.. Then somehow ah, suddenly my shin not that painful liao... Hahaha.. Ya ya i know, i can be THAT hua chi at times lar...

Hai, tomorrow have briefing!!! Sian! Better go sleep liao...

Tata~

Did anyone get weird calls recently??

2009-06-22T18:37:00.005+08:00

From 5 days ago, i've been receiving 2 -3 missed calls from unknown numbers. The first day i received from 64255142 and 65616431. I think it must be some insurance company wanting to pester me to buy insurance so i simply ignore them.

Then 3 days later I received 4 calls, from 6568739o, 65687415, 65610106 and a private number. I called 2 of them, 1 was a fax machine and for the other number,no one picked up the phone. So i ignored them again.

Until today, which is so ridiculous man! I received 15 calls for the past 2 hours! Kao.. All starting from 6568 7+++. Called 2 of their numbers and they told me it's ST Electronics, and both told me that they haven't made any calls to me. I called Singtel and they said there's nothing wrong with my phone. And they told me to call the corporate line tomorrow. If the problem is still not rectified, I'm going to change my phone number sia. It's super irritating to receive 1-ring calls every 10-15mins lo. :( And i've always been careful about divulging my mobile number to other companies, much less some company as remotely-linked to me as ST Electronics sia..

Anyone having the same problem out there???

What I've Done on a Sunday

2009-06-22T00:29:00.003+08:00

Been nua-ing at home today, but it's not really a bad feeling since it's a long time since i've the luxury of staying at home for the entire day. And what I've achieved... Finished 2 movies!! A walk to remember and The Break Up. Ok lar, not super nice but still watchable.. Also tried twittering, but so far no one in my hotmail add has signed up, or at least not with their msn add. So a bit bored also..

On Sat I was at Suntec, helping to promote our company's services to the silver community. And wow I must say it's quite well done, there're lotsa organisations on that day, and lotsa fun activities too... There's mass dancing at the Fountain of Wealth area, singing, games like sudoku and board games from Settler's Cafe, and even arcade machines! Lol... suddenly ageing doesn't sound too bad sia... And of course there're short talks on TCM, health, insurance and savings.. which are quite informative as well. This is probably the largest scale Active Aging Festival C3A has organised so far, many seniors turned up, which is quite good especially for me since I managed to get a few seniors to put their names down for my volunteer programme. Wahhaa...

K peeps, I gotta go.. Meanwhile enjoy Kris' songs~ ( I still prefer him to Adam, though many said he deserved to win instead.)

Everyone is so happening except me!!! :(

2009-06-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

Just met sista Da... And he's going to M'sia tomorrow for water rafting, and soon he's going to Saba with his classmates!! Wl is going to M'sia too with her group of colleagues and together they are going to stay at her colleagues' place there. Damn, why everyone's so happening!! Except moi!! ROaRS!!! Eh, to anyone reading this, if you going somewhere happening, don't forget to jio me!

Anyway i still don't know what to get for my dad for his bday cum Father's Day present. Anyone have any ideas??

Another of my random ramblings

2009-06-17T22:50:00.004+08:00

Just back from badminton session again. Today i learnt how to hold the racket in a backhand grip... After these years of playing, i didn't even know there's forehand and backhand grips sia.. Lol.. But other than that, no significant improvement sia, sighs... Don't know how long will it take for me to master this sport, probably never.

*****

I just went to top my EZ-link card lately, and the machine only allows me to buy my concession up till end of this month, and that's it. I no longer can use my concession!!! Sighs, meaning i've to spend about $40-50 more monthly for my travelling sia. :'(

My dad quoted from the New Paper yesterday, saying that graduates are shameful, lying that they are full-time students though they have already graduated. But hey, times are bad man...and since there's this loophole, it would be really silly if you don't take advantage of it. haha..

*****

Oh and i saw Bakerzin has this 50% off on its cheesecakes! Anyone interested to enjoy la kopi with moi while having those rich and creamy desserts?? Shoot...feeling hungry already. Think i better go rummage my fridge for some snacks now before my stomach wakes the whole family up.. haha..

TAta!

What I've Done during my off day

2009-06-15T23:02:00.003+08:00

Today's my off day.

Guiltily I haven't done anything productive, but it's been justified, I haven't got much sleep the past few weeks, especially the past few days, what with bbq, events, morning errands to do for the company -_-. So tiring... Finally i got to sleep!!! And proudly i slept a total of 11.5 hours~!! That's a record i haven't beaten since my year 1 when i slept for 16 hours after a tiring orientation camp.

Oh, and i finally finish 100th chapter of Detective Conan manga today...(don't know which volume) But i'm going to skip from now on, there's like 695 chapters and still going on~!! I can never finish at this rate sia... But i love the stories~ Shall be my official bedtime story for now. hah~

Yeah, and i also managed to tidy my closet sia, been a long time since i did that.. I've to do it today, cos if i don't, I can't squeeze another piece of clothing in there already. Yes, it's that packed! Guess, I'm gotta add that to my long list of resolutions - to keep my tidy consistently! Hehe..

Ok, it's late now, will blog another time~
Nitezzz...

My grandma's here again!

2009-06-11T21:42:00.008+08:00

Hi Peeps!! If there are still anyone around reading this blog that is. Haha...

The last time i blogged, my grandma lived with us for the first time, she stayed for a week, and left, now she's back again! Which marks the start of my homecooked feasts ahead. LOL... I'm so blessed indeed. ^_^

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Just to update, ever since then I went to Hong Kong with my family and went to Taiwan with Wanshi and a few other BHID peeps.. It's damn fun~ very adventurous and outdoor and NATURE type of vacation...Totally my ideal way of spending my holidays man!!

Taiwan (specifically Hualien!)'s scenery is really really pretty~ There are cliffs everywhere (at Taroko Park), there are greeneries everywhere, and the food is yummy too !! And why i loved it is that their ocean is... wow~ Ok, at least for someone who lives in Singapore practically forever, and when she finally sees a sea that is really blue instead of muddy brown, you can't blame her for being awestruck right??? Hee...

I guess i'm a very nature person, especially when it's associated to water. I can sit at the beach for hours just admiring the ocean, listen to waves, play in the sand or jump in the lagoon even though i'm not dressed for it~ Ask YenL or Wanshi,...and they'll tell you that i'm very random. :S

I really wish i have the time to blog about it and share the pictures with you guys, but i've absolutely NO TIME!! grrr.... Any spare time i have i would be sleeping to replenish my energy. Yes i'm one who needs lotsa sleep to function the next day. Yet lately i think i'm having trouble sleeping, think i might be having insomnia sia, suffering from chronic fatigue.. :(

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After not blogging for so long, i kinda missed this space where i can crap and blog about nonsense. So i'll try to blog a bit more regularly from now on. Jiayou Yiling!! haha..

Advice to Yiling:

Learn to love life, treat yourself better~!!

Sleep more!

Never postpone what you like or want to do, just do it!! :)

My grandma comes to live with us!! :D

2009-03-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

Today is the second day my grandma stayed with us!!

Together with her, comes along the maid as well...

And oh my god, ever since we're like living in paradise...

Suddenly the house feels clean and smells clean!! Lol...

And every night there's yummy HOMECOOKED food~!!!

Shioks~ 1st time i ate 2 bowls of rice in a loooonnng while man!!

Ever since she came, the whole house seems to be more cheerful, and everyone starts to be more talkative too... Like everyone becomes more alive too~

How i wish she would stay here permanently man! HAHA :D

The New Taboo

2009-01-15T11:33:00.004+08:00

"Cai Yuan Gun Gun", usually a popular phrase you would use in your Chinese New Year greetings. But unfortunately not this year.

You greet your elders "Cai Yuan", you might get yourself a nice red palm print instead of a nice red packet. Hah...

Or maybe you can try, you can still get something auspiciously red after all... XD

Cleaning off the dust

2009-01-10T13:02:00.003+08:00

Hi Everyone, if there still is anyone, lol... Just dropping by to say hello and that i'm still alive!! haha..

So sorry about not updating the blog at all, but working has really took up 80% of my waking time and i'm stiLL really trying hard to adapt to this most-of-my-time-don't-belong-to-me lifestyle.. Can't blame me when i wake up at 7.15am every morning, spend 1.5 hrs travelling to work, end at 6.30pm(most of the time even later), and finally reach home at what.. a long-past-dinnertime of 8+pm. After showering and all, only manage to have my TV dinner at 9pm, which means 2 hours before bedtime.

Even when i have time to come online, it's mainly msn-ing and checking emails. No time at all for blogging. You'll probably ask, what about wkends man? Hah, my sats are either BHID day or working day.. My suns are family day. (Where's time for me???)

HAha... Ok enough grumbling, though sometimes grumbling can be a good way of stress-relieve (quoted by Yiling). Hopefully i can update my past few months' life journal, though not exciting but still can be archived for remembrance sake. lol...

Anyway, I feel like doing some sport activities (for some obvious reasons). Who's game??? Let's plan something!! We can play badminton, take up tennis, learn diving or even yoga i also don't mind le. Just WAnna do something physically demanding and get my muscles moving (just in case... here i mean healthy sports, which can be done in open-doors AND without gaining unwanted attention). Cos I'm feeling totally 'Nua' already, that if i don't start moving soon, i'll most likely be a bed potato (i don't sit on couches when watching tv) already...

Okiez, gotta go... Will be here soon, i hope... :P

Oh ya, Merry Belated Xmas, Happy Belated New Year, and just in case... HAppy Chinese New Year in advance!! Haha...

Ciao

Trick

2008-11-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching 2 seasons of japanese drama series 2 days ago. It's called Trick.
If you are a fan of Jing Tian Yi, then you would want to watch this as well, as promoted to me by KL. And so i decided to give it a try, and hey, it's not bad!

It's about this magician and how she solved many seemingly mysterious and strange murder cases. Pretty intelligent i would say, for some of the cases, especially the mirror tricks. And they also taught many card tricks too~ Behind every mystery is a trick, hoho.. But even though i know beforehand that the 'unexplainables' would be eventually explained by the skillful technics and tricks, i'm still spooked by it man.. Would have screamed if it wasn't late at night when everyone was asleep. haha..

But it's nice! I recommend you all to watch!

Photo competition

2008-11-15T19:26:00.002+08:00

Those who are interested in taking part in photography competition, can try out our NLB competition for fun...

http://pl.sg

Intro-ed a friend to take part some time ago... And his picture was 1 of the 3 winners last week!! Lol... (-Bernard: muz treat me yar!)

Good luck in advance to those who wanna take part...
But don't forget me if you won.. :D

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2008-11-14T23:46:00.003+08:00

There is no solution..
No matter how i tried to think, how i tried to find an answer...
There is no solution.......

I wish time would stop now... stop it from slipping through my fingers. No matter how i tried to slow it or stop it, it still runs... at its usual fast speed, at its relentless consistency...

One after another...
Tired.
Overwhelmed,
And soon.. maybe numbed.

Memories... it's hard to be the only one to keep it alive.....

RAnts...

2008-10-29T22:30:00.004+08:00

Came here to dust off the cobwebs here...

And also shuan bian mention i love the dao xiang song in Jay's new album~~

So sweeeeeeeet!!!

Anyway, life's still pretty boring for me, maybe i should start learning how to bake cookies too~ Lolx...

And i kinda dread November... Because EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND IS BURNT! :'(((

Sighs.. i missed school life.

Yeah, i know, i shouldn't be complaining since the economy is so bad right now and some people even got unemployed.. (That's what almost everyone commented to me whenever i complained.) But can't i just complain?? Letting off some steam is a way of coping with stress also. Haha...

And a few weeks ago i was talking to mom, i can't remember the topic but somehow it led to us talking about my US trip. Man, suddenly missed it badly... Then the next few days keep seeing the cereal bars , the haagen daaz ice cream, the pop-tarts at supermarkets... Now watched the high school musical also reminded me of all the songs we used to hear everyday at the closing of the cedar point. Getting nostalgic all of a sudden...

Oh man, i'm indulging myself in my own reminisce again...

okok, gotta go~~

till nxt time~

Singapore's F1 Grand Prix~

2008-09-29T18:07:00.011+08:00

I've been watching Wei Xiao Pasta recently.. though quite lame, but i still like the sweet happy mood of the show. And the song is stuck on me~ Lol... Enjoy!

Anyway, yesterday's F1 Grand Prix was exciting indeed.

1st of all, the lightings on the circuit was superb~ When Channel 5 showed the view of the Marina Bay streets, ECP was totally faint as compared to the glowing bright tracks of the circuit. So if you take a plane above Singapore, you'll probably only see the circuit in the whole city. Cool..

The world's first night race~~

Then next the drivers... I was hoping Felipe Massa would win, since i don't really like Lewis Hamilton (cos he actually missed our President's lunch! What arrogance!). Massa was leading Hamilton steadily for the first 15 laps, until his first pit stop. I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw the fuel pipe broke, and the Ferrari dragging the broken pipe behind, almost dragging the mechanic guy along. Omg... Then he drove quite a distance, and the pipe did not break off, forcing him to stop and lose the precious half min. In addtion, he was also awarded a drive through penalty for this blunder. Man... That cost him not only the race, but the world championship as well!!!!!! All just because he was given the green light too early~!! My heart totally went out to him. Sighs... Seems like Hamilton will still take the championship home after all.

But then Fernando Alonso was really great, he truly deserved to win. He had started from 15th position (due to his engine break down in the qualifying round), and made his way all up to 1st! Truly incredible... Maybe it's what you call an equilibrium of luck here. Though he clocked the fastest lap times in both practice rounds, he actually got 15th in the qualifying round...yes, due to his faulty engine. Of all times! it's only during the sat's QR2, the critical round that determines his position in GP, that his engine broke. He was totally down in luck, everyone predicted it'll take a miracle to win the race. And what do you know, by a 180 degrees turn of luck, miracle did arrive. First his team mate crashed, closing the gap between him and the leading Massa, then Massa's pit stop disaster, followed by Hamilton's delay at the pit stop and later, Rosberg's 10-sec penalty. All paving the way for him to the first trophy. But of course besides luck, you need skill as well... Even though all these give him a 23-sec lead over Rosberg, it was all brought to nought when Force India crashed at lap 53, bringing out the safety car again. It's definitely thanks to his experience and driving skills that he maintained the lead and won Rosberg by 3 secs~

So you see, when you think things couldn't have gotten any worse, don't give up, cos who knows? Good luck may be just behind~ :)

Hope that applies to Massa and his Ferrari team too, in the remaining 3 races~ Ha...

What an exciting race... It has definitely gained my attention towards f1 races from now on.

Yup, so that's the end of my first experience watching an F1 race and i shall end here with Alonso's trademark action right after his win.

tata~

*finger waves*

I still think Ferrari is quite cool~ Ha..

Painted Skin

2008-09-27T21:55:00.002+08:00

Oops.. Didn't realise i neglected my blog for almost a month!! Omg..

Nothing much to update..

Except maybe i spent a lot this month.. Celebrating birthdays is one of the major expenditures..
Sept is a bad month, cos many of my friends are born in this month. Maybe i should just make myself sick for the whole of Sept nxt time... stay home and hide my wallet. Hah..

Shopping and eating is another. This month i ate plenty of buffets, treating my family/relative and some friends, cos they say i got my first (?) pay.. And i recently bought a few more shoes, and black pants.. since i have been wearing black pants everyday to work, that it's almost my uniform by now. lol.. I also bought several drama sets from TS.

Together with travelling and my handphone bills, i think i've spent about half my salary in less than 2 weeks!! Faints. Next month onwards have to watch out already. :S

Anyway, last week went to Werks to take family portrait. I'm still quite disappointed that they don't provide make up service at all, because many other photo studios out there do. And i look quite cui in the photos, especially i woke up at 7.30am to prepare for the shoot! (the appointment time was 9.30am). Plus it's quite ex also. Sighs.. oh well, once in a lifetime lor...

Yesterday went to watch Painted Skin with mf and her friends. When the rest of Singapore was in town, catching the F1 craze. It was quite an impromptu decision actually, she only asked me yesterday afternoon. But hey, the movie turned out not bad, quite watchable.. not as boring as i thought as a typical ancient Chinese film would turn out to be. haha.. It's quite a balanced mix of love, action, and a little humor, with the usual combination of demons and ghostbusters in a typical wu xia xiao shuo scene. Plus, the actors and actresses are okay looking also. so it's quite worth watching. haha~

But one thing i don't really understand why the movie is called Painted Skin. Yeah it sure sounds intriguing.. but when it comes to the movie itself, there really isn't much emphasis of the skin at all. Except only 1 scene when Zhou Xun peeled out her human skin, revealing her true form, which is a human shape made of countless worms or maggots or whatever it is. Ya, and it probably takes up 1-2 mins of the entire movie. That's it. No mention of that skin throughout the movie other than that scene.

After that, mf began discussing the movie, talked about how the guy betrayed his wife by having fantasies about the other woman, analysed what it means when the guy said this sentence or what it means when Zhao Wei did that. I think the producer would be damn happy that someone out there actually appreciate his movie so much that she analysed to such detail.

Qi Yu Wu is in there too~

Haha.. this is one of the rare times i actually go out for social outings man.. Kinda miss the old days when i could go out and chat wif old friends like this, without worrying about waking up early the next morning for work. In fact, tomorrow still have to work sia! :'( And today actually planned a celebration for some friends, then i had to receive this sms by Yongle saying bhid session is cancelled today cos many residents are sick. What a great disappointment man.. after all that planning and discussion. But oh well, hope the residents get well soons~

Okay got to go... F1 qualifying rounds is on!!!

Blog another time~

F1 qualifying rounds starting in 5 mins!

Read! Singapore, volunteer workshop, storytelling competition

2008-08-30T23:55:00.005+08:00

Last wed was a long day... I only ended at 9.30pm at night!!! That's due to us having to help out at Read! Singapore closing ceremony, and that's cos it's our department's event and we only have a limited no. of manpower. So if there's any event, the whole department is quan ti chu dong one... I'm supposed to usher the guests of honour that day, sighs and i totally freaked out. Our guests of honour includes our CE, director as well as the AMK MP. Heard the mp is a no-nonsense person, and after that table tennis thing that's going on, i pray i don't step on her toes or anything.

So we spent 1 whole day at the Pod (at National Library) preparing for the event. It sure is a lot of work for just a 2-3 hours event man.. going through the schedule, making sure everything is in place, wrap the gifts, prepare the food and everything~ Oh and we also ordered little cupcakes, specially designed for our Read Singapore event, for all our guests! They sure look enticing... but unfortunately, it's only look, guess they have much more room for improvement in the taste department. (I chuck off the whole piece of icing on the top!)

Luckily the ceremony went smoothly in general, though there's a little hitch on the playing of the video, but thankfully no one noticed. Ha... And seeing the MP in person, i think she seems to be a nice lady quite unlike what the newspapers wrote. But oh well, of course i can't say much since i don't know her well after all.

And throughout the whole thing i was so busy, that i totally forgot that i'm supposed to meet kl!!! =O! Feeling super guilty at 10 pm when i first saw the msg on the train back. But luckily she's smart enough to guess that would happen, so she didn't wait... Otherwise, i'll feel damn bad sia.

So that day was totally tiring.. Especially my poor feet! Having to stand on heels for the whole day is sheer torture i tell you!

And talking about torture~ Today is my only free day!! Argh. Last weekend was burnt cos i've to man the Active Aging Carnival booth at Ngee Ann City. And yesterday was totally gone as well, because we have this 10k fathers closing ceremony in the morning, and then i have to rush to prepare for the volunteers' workshop right after.

Oh and about this workshop, I actually have to start off the programme by giving a 20 mins presentation on kidsREAD! Because my boss have to stay at WRL to help out for the 10k fathers event. So on thurs, when she told me for the first time, i totally freaked out (again). And i only got the slides on Friday! PLUS i only end at 7pm on that day~!! It's damn jialat for me, cos i absolutely hate presenting. I've to spent like 1-2 hours going through the slides and thinking of what to say sia.. Terrible man...

And yesterday during the workshop, suddenly there is about 30 people in that room sia~ Usually it's only 10+! And this time there are 5-6 australians, together with many many international students! Usually the people are all Singaporeans! Almost faint~

So during the presentation, i put on a brave front (which i think i must be pretty good at, since my friend told me later that i'm not bad during the presentation heh.), and thankfully, nothing really went wrong, except that i took only 15 mins to say what i'm supposed to say in 30 mins?? Haha... But in any case, that's experience of the giving a kidsREAD presentation to the volunteers for the first time... And i still dread the next one, coming next month. I really hope my boss would offer to present instead of me. Heh.

Then at night, i went for this storytelling show at the Old Parliament House, now the Arts House. Actually i didn't really wanna go for this show, cos i've already have plans to meet jh they all... But this ticket was given by my boss's boss, and she said can't find anyone and these tix are real ex AND this is really relevant to my jobscope..... So i've no choice but to postpone what seem to be one of my rare social meetings of the week, at the last min. Sighs...

Luckily the 2 more major events are over now... I need some rest man.. Need time with my family, friends and also myself! Think i'll take the next 2 fridays off.. Now that i have like 20+ hours to clear! HAha! Shiok~!!

But before that maybe i go sleep first. It's 12.43 am already!!!

CiaoS~~~~~~

PS: Oh btw, i got myself a HP tablet notebook today!! Cool and yet not ex! Exactly like Comex prices and packages!! BUT minus the crowd and the queues! Haha... Apparently, many places are selling their electronic stuffs comparable to the Comex fair... but not many ppl know about it and all chiong to Suntec Convention. Heh.

Orientation

2008-08-26T23:16:00.004+08:00

Enjoyed these 2 days of orientation programme~
Cos this means i don't need to be stuck in the office doing the mundane work~~ lolx...

These 2 days of orientation programme quite shiok.
Yesterday went to National Library for a short tour around it. Didn't know there are s many heritage collections there. Almost like a museum sia.

Ended at 5pm yesterday, was quite happy cos this means i can go home earlier (my usual office hours end at 6.30pm). So lalala... i was on the train... Then at redhill station, my colleague called me, " Yiling, i thought you are at the NL? You went off already ar?? Can you come back and help us? We need people!"

Sighs... there goes my dream of reaching home early....yes dream, cos it's no longer a reality. So i turned back with a heavy heart...

In the end, the talk was not too bad... They provide free food and i had fun chatting with this colleagues. Plus there are 4 very 'interesting' individuals.

After the talk got 1 uncle came to me and gave a few feedbacks, about the microphone, the food and the talk. Then later our colleague P, told us that he can already identify 4 people who are not right up there, and that uncle is one of them. Then we were quite shocked, because everyone seemed decent to us. Then he told us about these 4 characters. 1 would always go around and introduce herself as an English teacher, and get phone numbers from the speakers, the authors and so on. But in actual fact, she's actually an umployed lady who always go to the library borrowing the book called memories of life or something. True enough, she was there... talking about that book, and asking for phone numbers... P was damn zun man..

The 2nd one was the most classic one.. P told us she would always tabao all the food back after the events. At first we don't believe, cos she really looked sane and decent and all... Then later, we saw her in action, she tooked her ntuc plastic bags and clear, yes literally cleared all the trays of food~~ Then P was really bad la.. when the lady walked to the lift, with her bags of food... He exclaimed loudly (on purpose)... "Oh NOOoooooo.....!!!! WHERE ARE MY CHICKEN WINGS?!!??!!!" Though she could be the type who really hated to see food being wasted, but the whole scene was really damn funny man... Lol.. And the thought of lumping the chicken wings, samosas, chocolate eclairs and cheese cake all into two plastic bags.... seems a little ... ok nvm.

The other 2 was less extreme. 1 of them always give his feedback after the talks, and P mimicked what the guy always say in his feedback... All i can say is that it was totally uncanny..because that was what that guy told me exactly!! Lol.. The last one is the quiet kind most of the time, but when he gets frustrated he would shout out hysterically in public...

So it's really quite interesting to hear such stories...

And as for today, we went around the main libraries to tour and understand the functions of these libraries.. quite cool... esp the esplanade one.. Can borrow music scores, cds, movies and even screenplay scripts sia...They also allow the public to showcase their piano performance at their open stage.. So cool lo!!

Quite an eye opener today...

Okay.. Will talk another time...
I'm tired man... everyday lack of sleep sia...
Tata!

Shiok-est day so far...

2008-08-21T19:04:00.002+08:00

Today's quite shiok...

Worked for half a day.

Went off for lunch at 1pm.

Then after lunch went to collect the tickets, and the drinks & popcorn combo..

The bestest thing is... EvERYtHInG is FOC!!!!!!!!!!!!

The next bestest thing is... Because it's an official company event, so i'm paid while watching movie!!!

Muahahahaa....

So i said, nlb has the most fantastic welfare ever...

But there's a little flaw to this shiok-est day though... The movie isn't really interesting ( i dozed off halfway through the movie)... and the popcorn i can't choose the salted ones.

But i'm not complaining at all though.. It's foc anyway haha...
But if i'm paying for it, i'll definitely have lots to complain. The title is "Mad About English". It's basically a documentary about how the whole China nation are putting efforts in improving their English for the Beijing Olympics. I can't believe how the posters said that this movie is hilarious, because throughout half the movie i can only managed half a smile... while the other half, i simply just slept.

Oh well... maybe this movie can serve as an inspiration for us to prepare for the upcoming F1 event though...that if we all work together, we can also achieve great improvements not so much in our English, but in our standards of conduct. Hopefully when we host our first F1 or YOG, guests won't catch any taxi-snatchers, spitters or gold-diggers in action. (Eeewww...)

Off track again, haha.. But anyway, at the current rate, i believe i'll be staying at nlb for quite some time now...

Ha.

1st time at kuishinbo...

2008-08-20T23:54:00.003+08:00

Finally... i got to eat at Kuishinbo after 2 long years man...
Still remember me, Bri and Claud were supposed to go there to celebrate Claud's birthday, but couldn't work it out that time..

Now, finally got to eat there!!
hahaha...

But unfortunately it's cos i'm kena cheated by Bri to treat her part of it...

Oh well...
Anyway, it's really an eye opener... Never seen the legs of a crab so long before~~ about 15 cm know!! And the meat in these legs is as much as the amount of meat in a pincer of a normal crab~ Shiok... That's Alaska Crabs for you... cool...

And first time i tried their well-known paper steamboat... Hmmm... but the soup never ever boils even after the fire went out... faints.. haha...

Bri recommend me to try their soba... Well, agree. Their sobas are pretty good. I even had 2 bowls of that!! hahah shiok...

Other than these more unique dishes, there's also the normal sashimis, the teppanyakis (did i spell correctly?), the normal desserts, the choc fondue and stuff... Not bad...

The most interesting thing in this restaurant is that they have this "tong tong tong kuishinbo" time when only the first 30 customers who chiong to the counter will their limited dish/dessert. And i got 2 out of 4!! lol... One of them is the orange sorbet, which is served in this little orange-shaped container. Cute...

Then me and Bri had a really good chat over there... Oh well, this dinner i really think is for her to nag de... Lol... jkjk. But it's really a great heart-to-heart chat. =)

Hope we have such chats more often...

Okies, gotta catch up my constant lacking beauty sleep~~
TAta~

Run NUS

2008-08-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

This is the first time i took part in Run NUS...
Of course i only participated in the Mass Run, which i already think it's quite far already. Lol...
For the competitive category, the route is 10km long lor~~ Okay to me it's super far.

But overall okay lar, when you have a friend to chat with, the run doesn't feel that far after all.
Can't imagine if i run alone man, i''ll probably feel that the run takes years to complete. Haha...

This time there are about 460 people who took part in the mass run, and 200-300 in the competitive category. The route starts from the stadium, to UCC, to Clementi Road, to Kent Ridge Crescent, to Biz bridge, to Prince George's Park, then along the road where the fright night houses are, to Central Library, then finally back to the ending point at the stadium again.

It's quite an experience to run around the campus the first time. Not bad... And no matter what, i have completed 5km after all!!! ha!

Arts workshop, first time volunteering at kidsREAD

2008-08-15T22:23:00.002+08:00

Today i'm feeling overall okay, but rethinking the day i feel that today's experience are actually quite interesting.

Meet an arts workshop trainer to discuss about the workshop for the volunteers.
Just this meeting itself had me experienced lotsa mixed feelings, which is a long story....
But anw in summary, she forgot about our meeting the other day and today she was still late by like half an hour! I can tell you i was so on the verge of smsing her "the meeting is off".

But then later when we finally meet, she explained to me her reasons, i forgave her. She turned out to be an interesting person, bubbly and energetic, that i couldn't be angry with her for long. Sighs...

Anw, it seems that her life was quite drama. Her student got involved in an accident, was paralysed and ever since suffered from brain damage. Before the accident, he was a popular rugby captain in JC, had Miss Singapore as his girlfriend and things were going smoothly for him. But after the accident, everything changed. He got very hostile most of the time, no longer the good-looking person he was before, girlfriend and many of his friends left him, and his IQ went back to primary school level. Omg... it's really really sad.. i mean, the plunge after being at the top of the world. If it were me, i wouldn't even know if i can live that long.. But it's really the parents who suffered the most... the guy would probably not understand nor experience this sadness due to his current intelligence, but the parents, who witnessed the whole situation with a clear mind, it's indeed a tragedy..

Oops, i'm off the point again.. but to cut the story short, she's involved in his case, a court case in fact, and she may need to be present during court to give her testimony. The whole case got really complicated and actually involves PI even. omg... sounds totally like what you see in dramas man.

Not only that, she worked in Nickelodeon before, was an illustrator of a storybook and had an interesting editor friend with a mild case of OCD.

There are really interesting people out there. My life on the other hand, looked blank and like a white sheet compared to them. In fact everyone in my office seemed really knowledgeable, very analytical and very up to date with the current affairs, so much so that i feel kinda a little stressed working in that environment. But oh well... we'll see as we go along...

Oh yar, this week a new colleague came. Perhaps we are similarly blur, or maybe she's just very sociable, we hit it off pretty okay. First time i actually see some light in the office. lol.. But nope, she's not our age, she's in her 30s, has a husband and children, something EVERY colleague in my department has... except me of course.

Then we had an interesting session called Gym in the Pocket, before we end work. It's like a huge rubberband which you can use it to do your gym exercises, be it toning your biceps, triceps or trim your tummy area, this simple rubberband can help you do it all. First time i saw such a product. lol...

And after work, i had to rush back to Gombak to volunteer at the reading club with my friends. As to why i went to volunteer, that's another long story.
But anyway, i kinda had to drag my feet when i reach there. I mean after work, when everyone can rush home, relax and probably catch the Olympics on Channel 5... I had to go to the CC to do volunteer work. How pathetic is that! Esp when fri is when i end work early!! My visionary image of me going shopping with friends aft work on fridays has now totally blown into smithereens. Sighs...

But hey, in the end, it turned out to be quite fun...and that hour actually went by pretty fast. Lols.. thanks to those stupid kids (yes i still dun like kids!), they actually made my day by their stupid silly responses.

Ask them to cut out the T-rex on the paper, one boy go cut off all his teeth and turned him into a "bo-gay" dino. Tell him that's very cruel cos the T-rex can't eat meat anymore, then he say the dino can be vegetarian. I ask, if no teeth he can chew the veg meh?? He say, oh yar hor! okay i feed him porridge.

Then there's the 3 army brothers, (they seem to have gone to the same hairdresser and that hairdresser must have worked in NS before). When they are colouring the dino, one of them asked me what color should he colour the dino's teeth. I said it depends, if they brush their teeth it should be white; if they didn't, then it should be yellow lor. Then he went to the extreme and coloured it green. Faints.

And they dare gang up and bluff me. When i asked do they watch tv at home at all, they say NOoooo... in unison (ya rite!). I replied, how can?? Don't bluff lo!! You all really only do homework most of the time meh?? They still dare say YESSsssss... totally in one voice you know. When i asked whether they know how to spell Spongebob, suddenly they all know how to spell... (Ha! I knew it!). Stupid silly kids... lol..

Then there's also this pair of indian siblings... The big sister is so sweet, she helped to clear up the table after everything, and she also took the broom to help us sweep the floor, while her clown brother was busy stealing their cousin's slippers. lol... But when the clown brother ran and fell down, the sister didn't reprimand her brother "see lar!" like i thought she would. Instead she took his hands and examine whether he's hurt, rubbed his hands and tell him gently not to run again. Such sisterly love at such a young age! I'm truly touched at that sight.

Overall, today's quite an interesting but very tiring day indeed.
Gonna catch up some sleep liao.
Bonne Nuit!

NUSSU welfare diary

2008-08-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

Wah... this yr's diary is so nice man~!!

The nicest ever loR!!

So nice design!!! Hard cover somemore!!!

kns... when i'm an undergraduate the diary is NEVER that nice man...

Not only that.. the info inside is damn useful too~!!

All the timings of the food outlets, the libraries, the offices and their hotline are in it...

All the important dates of the activities are also compiled in it, so that you won't ever miss any happening event or any deadline with this diary!!! So good lor!!

And there's even a MRT route map in the diary!!!

I'm so jealous man! Why didn't our NUSSU committee do this few yrs ago???

I would have loved this diary if i was an undergrad lar~~

So jealous....... :S

First times...

2008-08-09T10:18:00.005+08:00

Many just woke up, suddenly had many thoughts...

These 2 months I had experienced many of my firsts...

Starting from job search...
First time i know what i want for career
First time i went for an official job interview, with 3 interviewers on the panel
First time i receive the job reply from a company

Then mini grad trip...
First time i went to Genting without my family

Then commencement...
First time i put on the graduation gown
First time i received a flower bouquet!! lol...

Then Camp..
First time i am a camp counsellor
Then job starts... this is when i experienced many many of my firsts...
First time i helped out and know about the charity book sale at expo
First time i'm supposed to guide people what to do (usually people guide me~)
First time i'm supposed to book catering, venues for events, workshops
First time i go for a talk by a CE
First time i meet a CE, director and senior director of a large organisation
First time i can borrow reference books out of the library
First time i meet a grassroot leader
First time i went for a book discussion and meet an author
First time i help out in the organising of a contest
First time i requested to put up ads in the ST
First time i applied for medical leave and got subsidized for 85% of my medical bill
First time i stepped in a photo studio, get made up and pose for photos (now i know how difficult it is for American Next Top models to really pose the way their photographers want them to pose

And also first time i saw a dead cockroach in a storeroom

Think there'll be lots more firsts in future...
Hope i can really handle of them well...

Right now i'm indeed a NUS salmon... who just got thrown into the salty ocean after being in the freshwater lake for so long.. Wish i could swim nearer to the shore, but i know i can only move forward.. sighs..

Photo taking at Esplanande & Singapore Flyer!

2008-08-09T10:07:00.001+08:00

Started this post on 3rd Aug, 11.13pm...

I still can't believe we did the craziest thing ever today...

We went to Esplanade and Singapore Flyer to take photos...

So what, you'll probably be thinking...

How about taking photos at these places with our graduation gown????

Though it's only me sh and sy, it's unexpectedly quite fun to walk around with our gowns in the public... Especially today when so many tourists are at those places!! Damn paiseh lar, when we first put on our gowns and hats...

National DaY coming SoonS!!

(Finally the glass doors are shut while we are taking e pic~)

Who's Chee Keong??

Nice Esplanade background~~

Great take sy~!!

Thanks for helping us take so many photos that day~!!

Thanks soo much!! :)

Taken by a passer-by, who did a great job!!

The picture is all i asked~ Flowers n esplanade!!

Taken by a caucasian guy,

who finally help us take aft he had finish snapping pics of us with his cam phone..

treat us like part of e tourist attraction sia! :S

People start staring at us... Especially when we reach the merlion at the esplanade, some tourists took photos of us!! FAints! A few came up and congratulate us on our graduation.. haha...

With mini merlion~~

With the original huge one~ Haha..

(Taken by a China lady)

And also got 2 requested to take photos with us.. 1 Caucasian guy, then a French mom and her kid.. Lol... Damn cute lar..

French mom and her kid~

So cute! ^_^

Then because there's only 3 of us, we need to ask tourists along our way to help us take photos.. damn paiseh also.. Out of all these tourists, probably the most memorable one is a German family.. No, should be a big group of two families. They immediately split themselves up just to illustrate to us they are two different families here for different purposes. LOL.. 1 family stays in Singapore and the other came here for vacation... Haha.. They damn cute la, but too bad we didn't take any photos of them so I can't post it here.. Damn animated when they posed for their pics (we helped them take for the whole group)..

Taken by the german dad

the one who lived in Spore~

Later when we were about to leave the merlion, we actually saw another guy in his graduation robe taking photos with his family!!!! LOL... what a coincidence!! And we thought we were the only one!!! HAHa... Since so damn qiao, ~~and he not bad looking also~~ so shun bian ask him take a photo with us lorz... heh.. And from our short introduction, he's also an NUS graduate, graduating from Econs with hons..

All the Arts GRadUAteS! HA!!

And the next crazy thing is, we actually WALKED from Esplanade all the way to Singapore Flyer!!! Faints!! Don't forget we wearing our heels somemore...

At this last destination, we marked the end of our graduation stint...

Ahhh... finally i get to throw this motarboard~~

WooooHOOooo

Bye NUS!!

Bye EssayS!!

BYE STuPID ASSIGNMENT DEADLINES!!!

Went to chill at Jelapeno cafe... After those long walks, we definitely need the cold drinks and the aircon AND the cushion seats!!

But my fusion tea turned out to be a great disappointment....

Then me and sy had our dinner at PopEye's before heading back... where we sat the whole of the red-line from Marina Bay to Bukit BAtok (and JE for sy)!!

Definitely a memorable and satisfying day... =D

~~PS: Will add the photos to this post soonS!~~

WASTE MY TIME...

2008-08-09T01:16:00.003+08:00

I still can't believe this man...

Uploaded all the pics, arranged them nicely for the prev post and was ready to publish.

Clicked Publish Post, and instead of the "your post is published successfully", I got an "Sorry, your request cannot be processed. Required field cannot be blank. Blogger ID is missing." or something like that..

And i don't know why the hell the stupid autosave isn't working!! Cos usually if i go back page, the page will still be saved...

But when i click back, all the work, all the 3 HOURS OF WORK IS GONE!!!!

GONE!!!!!!!

WTH!!! @$#%%$@%$@%$#%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BL**DY H*LL!!!

great haul from G2000

2008-08-03T01:45:00.003+08:00

BHID today is okay... Quite fun, but quite short too...

I can never fully understand how people thinks..

Went shopping awhile with Yenling at G2000. Wah, the sales not bad! $29 for a pants worth $69 at usual price~!! but i heard it's already a week le... so many sizes and designs already sold off!! =(((

Bought 2 sets of office wear. Not a bad shou huo. heh..

Went to Westmall to meet hy n wl.. Quite enjoyable just chilling out man.
So long never had such chilling out times that i almost forgot it could be quite fun...
Lol...
Then bought a pair of shoes~ Only $15.90 and quite good for office wear too~

Shiok shiok~

Overall feeling not bad today~ HAha...

Induction programme

2008-08-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

Ahh....
Today's induction programme must be a brain washer man...
Make me lose my determination to quit liao...

Argghh...

And this happened right after i checked my bank account yest~

This must be a set up!

i miss school and my tv life..

2008-07-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

Today's workshop is at one of the secondary schools in Jurong East~
Finally at the WEST!! HAha...
Then after the talk my boss told me i can leave from there by 6pm liao..
Shiok! Can reach home at 6+ instead of the ungodly time of 8+pm!!

What's the first thing i did when i reach home??
Watch TV !!!
I miss my tV soO much man!!!

Watching tv is such a luxury nowadays... =(
Ever since i started work, i've totally no time to interact with this long time companion of mine.
I used to spend at least 2-3 hours with it, but now... Even weekend also no time to pei2 my TV liao... =(

The first week has passed, been to many places, learnt quite a bit of new things. Thought my workload is quite slack, though time-consuming as well... But today my boss gave me a briefing on what is my role here and all... Then i realised this week is like a vacation man... as compared to the responsibilities ahead. Oh man... it's of much more responsibility than i thought. Although i'm glad to have such opportunity, but i don't know i'm able to make it through or not sia.

Guess i've to keep reminding myself this is no longer like the past temp jobs i used to do.

I miss school life~!!! =((

Should i switch or not???
Wed i shall see...

1st week of work...

2008-07-20T17:03:00.003+08:00

Oops... i think i'm lagging behind again in blogging liao..
I'll try my best to update all the happenings during this 2 month break after the exams...

But anyway, guess what??

I just came back from work~!!!
Yes, and today's Sun!!
Faints~

okay, so far the job is not bad...
Get to round Singapore, be involved in events and stuff...
Learnt lots over these few days too...
But the people... they are all females! sighs... and quite old females..
Double sighs...
Hope i can find some common topics to talk to them soon~

Anyway, i found this interesting get to know yourself better online quiz... got view on yourself, type of gf/bf, type of job education and success... so many areas sia..

Ha.. hope u all will have fun doing this too~

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

So true ritE???
WAhahaha... Have fun~!!

Graduation~!!!!

2008-07-12T22:09:00.006+08:00

Wei's Commencement Day (08.07.08):

"We are Bachelors of Arts!!
Lend me wear ur motarboard first.. heh.."

My commencement (09.07.08):

Thanks lots for taking e time down!!
And for gving me e nicest daisy eva~!! hah..

Ma famile~

Thanks peeps for coming down n for e chocs!

"Woohooo... We're finally outta here!!"
Lol..

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever~~

Think i'll miss NUS man~~ =(

And this is random... but i suddenly don't feel like working already... And i haven even started work! oh no!

HK Disneyland Lucky Draw~!!

2008-06-29T16:22:00.006+08:00

Don't think this sounds too unfamiliar to you guys if you all have been keeping tabs on kennysia's blog.

Some China woman called me on my mobile 2-3 weeks ago, when i went to play badminton with sy and sh. That china woman told that she's calling from Hong Kong Disneyland, and she asked whether i'm free for their annual dinner or not. Thinking that this call might be another one of those insurance or MLM companies, i simply gave her a lame excuse to reject her. Then after that she told me for a global promotional event, they are giving away a trip to HK Disneyland for 2 to lucky participants in Singapore, Malaysia, and other Chinese populated countries. And yeah, I'm one of the lucky ones~

WOW!!

I gave her my name and add... (in chinese, but the strange thing is they didn't ask me how to write my add in Chinese*. Hmmm...seems like they know how to write my add in Chinese, when i don't even know!) They told me that within 1 week i'll be able to receive it.

(*There's this small part... I told my name in Chinese.. and she laughed and told her colleague in the background that she couldn't continue. I was so offended kay!! So another colleague took over, also with China-accent. Strange... i thought, why hk disney people hv no hk accent at all?? or they cutting cost? But for such a big corporation, don't need to bah... Was a little strange, but i let it pass..)

Shiok!!

Then i asked her, how they got my number... She told me they got it through one of their 200+ sponsors, either from travel agencies or some other lucky draws.

And additionally, they also told me that, as i would not be able to attend the annual dinner or watever shit 晚会, I also would not be able to be present during their grand lucky draw. They gave me a lucky draw no. B168749, and told me to watch the Phoenix Channel (I think, cos i can't really remember what she told me.. She spoke so bloody quick in fluent mandarin..) on Sunday 7pm, and take note of the right hand corner in case my no. would flash and i would win the draw~!!

Since i couldn't remember what channel she said, and i'm also never lucky in such draws so i don't bother watching. Meanwhile i waited... for the tickets to be sent to my place... 1 week later and still no news.

Soon after i totally forgot about the call...

Then last week, coincidentally it was a badminton day with sy again.. I received another call from this HK Disneyland company again...

She first asked me, why i haven't attended the annual dinner... I told her i'm not free.
Then she asked, have i watched the donno-what channel.. I told her no, cos i din catch the channel the other time. She repeated the Channel name again, she said it's a channel which all Chinese people will watch globally... (Wa...she sounds as if all chinese people would suscribe to SCV sia...)
She later told me that it's a pity cos actually i've won the ThirD PRIZE in their annual Lucky Draw!! She verified my lucky draw number B168749, and told me that i've won a Benz CAr~!!! Woohooo~!!!

Happily i gave her my address (in English this time, cos i don't trust them to be able to send correctly to my place if they wrote in mandarin... I mean in singapore, who sends letters in mandarin address??)

She gave me many specific details, like when i receive my cheque i have to bank in that cheque and immediately inform them. She even gave me a hongkong number.. 00852-66312482 to call her if there are any enquiries or doubts. Name is Wang Shu Tian. She kept assuring me that I'm really a very lucky person cos not everyone can win such a huge prize. Probably cos i didn't sound too excited all these while cos i'm busy crossing the road with sy..She checked and re-checked my address quite a few times, told me again and again that once i get the cheque i have to report to her cos she can't afford to take responsibility if the cheque is misplaced. She ended the call, telling me that she'll then inform the lawyer to go ahead with the procedure and reminded me to give her a treat when i attend the press conference in hk.

She sounded so genuine that i half-believed her... And if i really win, I would win a huge sum of money man~~

The next day, I went online to check up the HK Disneyland.. Cos the more i think about it, the more suspicious it is.. I search with all kinds of keywords: HK disneyland, lucky draw, annual dinner... But I didn't manage to find it. Perhaps they don't want to publicize it yet before the draw? Still, the nagging thought... I finally google-ed in HK disneyland lucky draw scam and you know what... There are at least 3 accounts of such cases~~!! All similar to my case!!! Damn... tMDs, WTH!!!!!!! How dare they use names like HK Disneyland and phoenix tv lor!!

Apparently Kennysia, got cheated too last year... His account of it was super funny. Now that i recall, i think sy or kl also only mention this to me only recently~!!! So qiao lor... You guys can have a good laugh here.

References:
http://www.hktourismboard.com/seasia/images/misrep.pdf
http://hk.dbs.com/en/consumer/automatedbankingservices/internet/ecb_alert/

and Story accounts:
http://eway-mylife.blogspot.com/2007/10/hong-kong-lucky-draw-fraud.html
http://alvinx.multiply.com/links/item/9
http://www.singaporebikes.com/forums/showthread.php?t=151843
http://ericyeow.net/blog/9
http://joshuatj.blogs.friendster.com/i_am/2008/02/hongkong_lucky_.html
http://from-this-moment.blogspot.com/2007/11/hong-kong-lucky-draw-scam.html
http://www.blogcatalog.com/discuss/entry/be-careful-of-lucky-draw-scam-from-china
http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/archive/index.php/t-23642.html
http://forums.keeptouch.net/showthread.php?p=1930552

And reading all their accounts, i realised that i'm only in Step 2 of these scammers' plot. There is a step 3 and the most crucial step... To ask for a 5% insurance money before they could transmit my prize to me... Which usually is about $2-3k... Stupid A**-h***s!!

I've a good mind to do the same the next time they call me man... Hai me so happy for 1 day for nothing!! Damn! Hai me think so much of wat to do with the money when i've gotten it. WTH! Hai me almost buy my last 4 numbers of my hp no. cos i tink it's a lucky no. In fact, i think this is one of their plots as well... putting your last 4 digits of your hp no. as your lucky draw number. DAmN TMD!!! Cheat my feelings maan!! =(

Which reminds me... how did they get my number in the first place?? I only got my number like 3 months ago, and i didn't give away my new number to many strangers in these 3 months... I came up with a few possibilities...

1) They found my number in the YahooAuctions, Jobstreet, JobsDB..
2) They got my number through lucky draw forms (which i remember only the KBox luckydraw)
3) The companies which I applied jobs to sold my number to these scammer companies... Or the 'job companies' are the scammers in the first place. Besides govt jobs (which i have no doubts at all that they won't leak any confidential info to outsiders), i applied to 2-3 jobs under jobstreet.com which now i think it looks kinda dubious.
4) I seldom give away my number to any surveys, esp what looks like insurance or MLM surveys. The only one i can remember is the bank survey during careerfair asking us to be insurance agents.
5) The travel agency (when i went to Genting) sold my number to them.

But i believe the most likely ones are point 1) or 3). Cos i realised that most people who kena are in their 20s to 30s... most of them are most probably jobseekers, so through resumes or application forms, they get our numbers... WTH...

Or if it's point 2) and 5), they went through the list and filter out the target group... which sounds less plausible.. But it still could happen.

I hope these bloody scammers would get to enjoy their free meal behind the bars soon~

Meanwhile let's spread the word around so these Cheena moneysuckers won't get their way!!

Good News!!

2008-06-25T22:20:00.004+08:00

Hey GuyS, just wanna share the good news!
i got the NLB job!!
And the pay is higher than i expected...
haha~!!

And i tink today must be a good day for employment or something...
Another friend finally got a job he wanted too~!!

Badminton + Shopping at JP

2008-06-10T00:14:00.006+08:00

Played badminton in the morning with sy and sh...
Then went to jp to eat... At Crystal Jade.
And i had a whole 'long' of xiaolongbaos to myself~~!! Hahaa!!

Then we moved on to shop~!!
HAha.. gSS sales!! How can we possibly miss it??

My best buy of the day: A super super comfy white formal covered shoe with some heel. For only $20 bucks!!! For the same comfi-ness, i think it would have worth at least about $70 bucks elsewhere~ hAha! Shiok man...

Plus L'oreal products are all 20% off!! Haha... lucky i didn't buy at Watson's the few times i'm tempted to when i passed by. Still not cheap though... But in any case, I'm starting to love John Little man.. Haha...

That's why i always say, departmental stores are simply the best!! :D

In fact a few wks ago, i bought a long... ermm, i dunno what you called that, a jacket or cardigan or just an outer layer of clothing?? (made of thin material kind) haha.. yar for only 16 bucks.. usual price $29.90~ Wooo~~ Shiok! At this BHG dept store, which i think is formerly Seiyu. I don't mind what name they use, as long as have great discounts can le.. Muahaha~~

Anyway back to today, we really did some serious shopping and we were all satisfied with our gss buys at jp. Haha~ In fact, we actually shopped till their shutters dropped sia... LolS~

But it's quite tiring though, cos we were on our feet most of the day. Just came back not long ago and my feet are still sore and tired... Better get some rest. Haha..

Ciao~

No end to tests and exams...

2008-06-09T10:29:00.002+08:00

wah.. i still thought I've seen the end of tests and exams already...

No, before job interview still must go for tests!!

Faints..

My first job reply!!! :D

2008-06-07T00:31:00.003+08:00

Omg omg omg...!!!

I finally got my first job reply!!!

Wah.. sent my application like 3 wks ago~ Thought confirm no hope liao...

Then now i saw this email~!!!

I got shortlisted for interview at NLB!!! Hahaha!!

and it's in my junkmail lar!!

Lucky i went to check~!!

So happie maaannn...
Whether can get the job anot, i'm still happy~
Cos it means that all hope's not lost for me! :DDD

Food for thought...

2008-06-06T23:08:00.008+08:00

Sometimes it takes one to step out of one's current situation to see the big picture and what's really going on.

Yeah, i admit i was very narrow in my scope in terms of goals, observation and whatever else in the past, and still am right now.

But thinking things through and pondering on what i want to achieve out of my career, and my life, and also what is it that is meaningful to me in my life has sorta make me clearer. Okay, though not a lot, but still, a bit is better than nothing rite? Haha..

I suddenly also understand truly that having goals in life really give life a very meaningful purpose. And i also finally get what it means by a person with goals will be more successful than a person without. Because a person with no direction has no clear motivation to succeed either. Hmmm...

I also finally understood why my sec sch friend pf suddenly shot up to become the top scholar of my swiss, when we 2 were almost on par during sec 1 & 2. She had long term goals.. she told me she aspires to be a zoologist or a marine biologist when we were sec 1!! (That time i only think of results, that's the furthest man.)

In any case, I am really thankful for having friends around me who make me realise that, especially ahgong (who alr kan tou hong cheng long ago and taught me to see the big picture of things, tho it takes quite awhile la huh. =X). HAha! I must also thank NUS education which put me through rigorous readings of journals that i actually find non-fiction books readable for the first time (Cos i've alr gone through the worst!). And i also thank myself for choosing psychology as a major (lolx..), and being in FASS (ok, mayb tt's not much of a choice, heh.). Cos i never regretted taking it and it allows me to discover my interest in social science~

Because my first choice is actually biz, and I used to like numbers and enjoy doing accounts. Even during primary school, when the teacher asked, i told her i want to be a business woman. lol... (Cos back then i alr know i don't like being a conventional teacher, lawyer or doctor.) And still thought i'm going to be that until i entered m1 and uni, and after taking the marketing module i'm totally convinced that the business world is simply not for me. I definitely can't handle the strong competition and high levels of office politics in biz world. And for accounts and finance, suddenly they all seem boring to me. Though it is still fun and satisfying to solve maths problems and balancing accounts, i don't think i want to spend my whole life just dealing with numbers.

Am happy i finally have some direction to what i want. But how many people in this world get to do what they like as a career? Plus it's kinda little late for me to receive higher training for it since i've graduated. But then again, late is better than never rite? heh..

Wish me luck in job search!! :D

CiaoS~

PS: Hey people, can update your blogs? I'm so bored of reading the same thing lar.. haha...

My old "About Me"

2008-06-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

```Simple things make me hapPIE, little things make me lauGh, some things can make me aNgry, the rest can make me sAd...``` ```Though I never ever seemed to be, but little little thoughts and gestures can touch me easily to the heart...``` ```Hurting anyone is never my intention, though many a times words and actions may seem to imply so… But having a natural cursed mouth is not something which I have control over too...``` ```That’s all I know about myself, the rest is for you to find out... if you ever have the patience to. Ha~```

3 weeks later after my exams...

2008-06-02T00:53:00.009+08:00

... and man, i'm still slacking.. Argghhh...

I'm super restless sia.. Maybe cos i'm quite broke now also le, wan enjoy life also no money to enjoy anymore liao. I mean, what form of entertainment (that's fun) is free in Singapore? If you don't have the $$, there's simply almost nothing you can do here. Once you step out of the house, you must alr pay for the transport to go anywhere else in S'pore. Eating, Bowling, Movie, Coffee, Boardgames... Which of these don't require monies?? Never mind out of the house, even watching TV at home you also must pay for the TV subscription, electricity blah blah... Faints!

Anyway... cos i'm super restless, i decided to update my long not-updated blog.. And also update my blog a little so that at least in future i know what i've done during my graduation vacation. Lol...

Starting from last last last week (oops, heh.. din noe it's so long ago liaoz)...

13th May, Tues
Afternoon: Met up with yt and jj to discuss about genting trip. Because we wanna go before the sch hols (peak), so have to go and leave before 23rd. At Plaza Sing, went to the travel agency to find out more about the price. End up booking with them. Lol...

Cos the package is simply too good to resist~ For S$138, in total we got 2 First World rooms for 2 nights, 2-way coach trips, and 2 complimentary breakfasts each!!!

Evening: Met up with ws and wei for this GE talk with Adam Khoo, this young entrepreneur who became a miillionaire at 26. True enough, his talk is really inspirational, almost made me wanna sit for the test and join GE. Almost. But i think that this job will most probably be under my retirement plans.. hah.. I wan do other stuffs now.

14th May, Wed
The first Ethelonter 5 briefing. Met up with the rest of my group counselors as well as the rest of the others, know much more about the camp and also got the schedule for dry runs. I was kinda intimidated by the super high enthusiasm of the rest of the counselors sia. I really hope i'll get used to it sia.

15th May, Thurs
Went to this Shiseido talk by this pretty lady whom i think looks a little like Hebe. Overall, i think her talk was okay, though not real interesting but not boring either. But i guess the others don't think so. My AKC who sat next to me whispered, "Kill me please~" and even the two other Shiseido's representatives (i seriously don't know what is the purpose of their prescence, maybe just to accompany the speaker?) were playing around with their handphones while the speaker is talking. Hmmm... but nvm, i'm only there for the free samples~ (Which only turns out to be a facial wash and some oil blotters, when i thought got perfume or cosmetics.=s)

16th May, Friday
Went with yt and jq for kbox~ tried out lots of new english songs.. They have lots of updated and new ones with authentic MTVs!! Was quite surprised sia~~ Haa.. Then later we went back to NUS to book our gowns...

The graduates~~

...and i think i shouldn't have register so soon on impulse. In the end i mixed up my degree category and have to pay an extra $6 for the admin change. Damn. And the school didn't really specify the difference between Bachelor of Arts and Bachelor of Soc. Science. WTH, one is with honours, the other without. Meaning for social sciences in FASS with honours you get Bachelor of Soc. Sci., without, you get Bachelor of Arts. How on earth would we know that??!!

17th May, Saturday
rest at home.

18th May, Sunday - Flying Above Singapore
Was thinking that my grandma never had a chance to fly on a plane due to her leg problems, so thought that Singapore Flyer would be a good alternative for her to experience being at high altitudes and enjoying the view above~ haha.. So our whole family went, and due to my grandma's condition, we got a whole capsule for ourselves~!!! HA!

Whole capsule to ourselves~

At the beginning

At the Top of the Wheel~

2nd view from the bottom of the wheel

2nd view from the Top~

The 'Durian'

The End~~

Okay think i better go sleep now, will update the rest next time~ =)

Drawing personality

2008-06-01T21:53:00.002+08:00

What does your drawing say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously. When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much.
You are a direct and forthright person. You like to get to the core of the issue right away, with few signs of hesitation.
You like following the rules and being objective. You are precise and meticulous, and like to evaluate decisions before making them.
You have a sunny, cheerful disposition.

Final Sem Results

2008-05-30T13:44:00.003+08:00

Sighs..
Didn't do as well as i thought...
damn..
Some more my supposedly best subject turns out to be my worst!!
KNS..
But okay lar, overall still improve my CAP by .16..
Considered got improvement and my best sem so far..
But still...
a BIG disappointment for Soc Cog and Maths..

WTH...

Pull Tabs

2008-05-29T12:27:00.002+08:00

Sighs...
If it's really about luck, then i must be quite unlucky sia..
Pull Tabs.. Only got 5 winning tickets out of 23???
Some more each ticket is worth 5 CR, supposed to increase my chances of winning sia.
Kns...

Some people really have all the luck they could get... =(

Mottos in life...

2008-05-29T12:13:00.001+08:00

Life~~
Live to Eat!!
To Play!!
To Have Fun~!!=D

Work~~
Work to Live... =(

Some people worked so hard just to live, but in the end they forgot about living~~
No point right...
So have Fun while you can!! :D

Thoughts on flaws, criticisms and transparency...

2008-05-13T23:37:00.012+08:00

Recent spate of events has set me thinking...

Why am i so prone to criticisms by others? Especially by friends, which is even worse.

Don't criticise others and you won't be criticise by others??
The thing is I usually don't criticise others at all, so why this critical treatment??
And its not because they are flawless or perfect sia.
But because i chose to keep quiet about it, not wanting to disturb the peaceful relationship.

But i just realised this "don't criticise others if you don't want to be criticised" theory don't work at all. If you don't criticise others, others would do that to you. And if you keep quiet and be nice to others, they would think they don't have as much flaws as you and that sorta give them the right to talk about you critically.

Treating others considerately may not equate to others giving you a similar treatment after all. So, why bother trying so hard to be so considerate, tactful and nice towards them when they don't even give a heck?

Defence! Why bear the insult?
When someone passed me a negative remark, i used to think "why bother to cover these flaws? After all, they are good friends already, and they probably have good intentions to change me for the better." Or when someone joked about my flaws, i used to think "it's okay, they are just kidding, no harm. Don't make a mountain out of a molehill".

But no, i realised if you keep quiet and don't defend yourself on the spot, others will think that you admit and agreed with them. That little little harm may thus accumulate to the mountain, when negative remarks and jokes occurs at higher frequency, at a greater level, and even to the point of hurtful insult. I sometimes wonder, what are they thinking? With increasing hurtful comments, are they trying to test my threshold of tolerance, or do they want to see my response when i reach that threshold? And recently that threshold has been greatly lowered, and if i do reach it, it's definitely not gonna be pretty.

And the part about their good intention? Nah... i realised (sadly) that most people criticise just so they can feel good about themselves, like putting others down while boosting their self-confidence or something. After all feeling good about oneself is the very most basic goal of every human, consciously or subconsciously (cited from ET's notes, thus not a sweeping statement). And also, if they really have good intentions, where's their good advice? Why only a truck full of criticisms but no suggestions or solutions to the problem?? Not only that, the tone of that person also tells a lot. Even a fool can differentiate between concern and plain mocking.

Transparency: Displaying too much of yourself?
Again, i used to think i really do have many flaws...while others seem to be flawless. Everyone has flaws. But perhaps, my main big flaw is that i'm super transparent to others that i don't really hide my unglam, my bad habits, and my whatever other flaws to others. While on the other hand, those seemingly "flawless others" are very good in hiding or "justifying" their own negative points. And because my flaws are known, others tend to up-play them, making them more salient to everyone else, including me, while they cover theirs well. For many years i foolishly believe in it, and that's probably why i lost confidence in myself along the way.

Yup, but a good number of events and some people has taught me not to reveal too much to another, esp flaws. And being nice is only for people who are nice to you. Being nice to someone who isn't to you is no longer called magnanimity, but now seen as foolishness, even to that same not nice someone whom you treat nicely.

Of course these are just my thoughts, and venting of my frustration. So there's no need to spark up a debate or anything. And it's not refering to a specific someone, but about a couple of events in general. May or may not apply to you, you be your own judge.

Suntec shopping, cycling @ ECP

2008-05-11T17:22:00.004+08:00

Friday, went to Suntec and Marina Square with Kailing..
To shop for her japan trip.
Wa! Tiring day sia! Walked till my feet form blisters...
lol..
Went to buy her moisturizer, her bag pack, her giodarno tee..
I bought my contacts as well as a Giodarno tee too!
It's been a loonnng time since i went shopping man..
Went esplanade to take some pics too~
But photos still with kl.. WAiting waiting...
HAha~!

Yesterday, went cycling at ECP.. Though fewer than expected turned up yesterday, but overall still quite fun. Taking pics, talking crap and stuff.. haha!

The CSC girls...

The whole group who turned up...

Everyone so busy so soon...

2008-05-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

Haha.. sang to my heart's content this afternoon with shuhui..

And learn many new chinese songs from shu hui also.. Cos i so long never listen to Chi songs le sia.

And amazingly i met a friend whom i thought i would never meet again and got his no.~ haha!

Nvm.

Sighs, think i'll be super bored next week lar.. Almost everyone is going for interns, working, going overseas for vacation and for exchange. What a wet blanket.

Want to relax also can't find the people! 根本就是 forcing me to bring forward my job search plans mah~!

Most satisfying paper ever...

2008-05-05T22:02:00.004+08:00

Social Cognition!! My last paper!!
Think it's also my most satisfying paper ever!! Haha!
Finished the paper on time!! And it tests everything that i studied!! Lolx!

Spent quite some doing my Short Ans questions initially. Spent 1 hr 15 mins.
Left 45 mins for 40 MCQs. Rushed it all, in the end still left 10+ mins to do my unfinished question!! HAha... And spent the last 10 minutes doing a 15 mark question.

Amazing... 40 mcqs in 30 mins! My record-breaking time sia!

But i think the standard of this paper is doable. I feel the MCQs are quite easy, but a few people told me it's tricky, so quite worried that i didn't get the trick part.

Short ans is not that straightforward, not in the notes and have to link yourself. And i think i gave quite short and crappy answers. So this part i've no confidence.

To prove my point on the standard of the paper, about 20% has left the exam hall 20-30 minutes before the exam end sia. So many people must have felt it's easy too..

But overall, this is the first module i've no regrets with. Interesting lectures, comprehensive notes, good project mates, doable mid term and finals! And in the end i only spent 2-3 days to study for this... HA!

Results I can't say it will be good, since there's like a big bunch of the dean list's people taking this module... But at least i know this paper i gave my best shot liao. =D

And now i'm abit at a loss sia.. AFter the past few days of intensive studying, Now no more exams, suddenly don't know what to do sia... Lol...

Guess i'll source out for more dramas to watch~~ Muahahah...

Tata.. go sleep liao~

Fantasy Couple

2008-05-04T16:41:00.005+08:00

I just finished Fantasy Couple...
Ha DR, I must say you are right sia.. This is damn nice~!
And Jang Chui Soo is so charming~~
Wahaha...

Nice Song too! Enjoy!

Haha!

2008-05-02T15:52:00.011+08:00

Wednesday
After health paper on wed...
i felt as if a big load was off my shoulders...
Didn't do too well for it, but had a nice long meal with yt and ahgong...

And ya, i won't dare to order a whole cafe cartel's Pork Ribs lunch for myself again...
The taste is really too strong that, even if you have the stomach space for it, you simply can't stand the taste of it after 5 ribs. The next 5 is basically a test of your endurance, tolerance and determination. Lolx...

Think we spent about 5 hours (???!!!) in there, chatting... Bet the waiters can't wait to chase us out. Haha..And think after that 5 hours, the health exam seemed to be a distant event, our coming last paper was also totally out of our mind (after all, still got 5 days to prepare.. yt had 6; ahgong had 7, open book some more!!!).

Treated ahgong to his meal too.. Cos it's his BIRTHDAY~!!! Think by now can spot many white hairs liao... lol!! jk..

A nice way to mark our final meeting of the sem, and of our university days. No matter what happens in future, i think i'll not forget these "Psych Khakis", whenever i think back of my uni days. =) Ha!

Thursday
Then yesterday.. Labour Day... So busy till i didn't realise it's labour day yesterday, until i woke up at about 9am, and still found my parents at home.
Still asked, "Eh, how come you all at home today? No need to go to work meh? Sick ar?"
"Today Labour Day!!!"
"Oh..."

Yup, was a relaxing day yesterday... Watched this HK drama and it showed this girl trying to invent a new type of xiaolongbao to save the restaurant. So naturally, when dad asked, "What you all want for breakfast?" "Dim Sum" was my instinctive reply.

So our whole family, together with my Ah-Ma, we went to this dim sum restaurant for dim sum breakfast. Maybe it was because i'm hungry, but i find they served some of the best dim sums i've ever tasted. Haha... Charsiew buns are super delicious, fillings are not those yucky red pork meat with oil lumps you usually eat from coffee shops, but here the charsiews are soaked with sweet dark brown sauce, no solid oil lumps present, and its thick white outer layer skin is soft and of cotton-like texture, that it almost melts in your mouth. Haha!! Don't drool wor!!

Next is my favourite prawn dumplings!!! The only disappointment is that they made the skin of my favourite dim sum so soft that it sticks on the plate, that i have to eat them separately. But other than that, no complains at all. The prawns are fresh and cooked to the optimum degree~ You know, it has retained the freshness and juiciness of the prawns, and at the same time it was cooked enough to remove its raw fishy taste. MMmmmm.. Haha!! Same goes for the prawns for our Hor Fun.. This time it's the whole fresh prawns~~ Another chance for me again to taste these delightful prawns... And they also poured a fried egg over the hor fun, covering it.. Perfect combination with the hor fun, prawns and vegetables... YUMS!

Siew mais also super nice, xiaolongbaos also not bad!! They even made me want more of their steamed chicken glutinous rice, (or the so-called Lor Mai Gai) something which i've never liked before. HAha!

Too bad each dim sum's serving is only 3 small pieces, and there are like 5 of us... So can't get enough of everything. But a bit here and there, they still manage to fill our stomachs well... :D

The only other sian thing is because yesterday is a holiday, there were many people there in the morning. We waited for about 2 hours in total, with 2-3 dishes coming in 30-45 min intervals. But our anger was appeased by the quality, and also by a few events later.

Because they are so busy, i think in their hurry they forgot to cancel the tick in our order after they served us the glutinous rice. So we had another additional one!! Totally FOC. Lols..

And because my dad is a regular there and because he complain of the long time we waited, our originally free red bean paste dessert is upgraded to Fried Ice-cream! HA! (For your info, they sell each of their fried ice-cream at 6 bucks each sia!)

So this is what we ordered yesterday:

Dim Sum
Charsiew Baos
Prawn Dumplings
Siew Mais
Jiu Cai Dumplings
Xiaolongbaos
Steamed pork ribs (I didn't touch...maybe cos of the day before)

Yam Rice Cakes
Pumpkin Rice Cakes
Glutinous Chicken Rice (x 2)
Fried Prawn Dumplings

Main Dish
Century Egg Porridge
Hor Fun W Egg

Overall rating: 9/10

Today
And just now, I won over 800 tokens in Scratch and Win!!! The biggest win so far... Ok, i forgive backstage technologies for my previous bad experience. Heh.=)

And today is already Friday, only left 3 days to my final paper and i haven't even started anything!!! Up till now still in the lalala mode...
Hope i have the motivation to start today...
Heh.

1 thing to say...

2008-04-29T12:59:00.004+08:00

I just confirmed with the lecturer...
My health paper could have gotten 72... Which would have been a A- or B+ grade..
But was adjusted to a much lower grade... sighs.

But in a way, i still feel quite happy..
At least now i know the potential of my paper and my efforts weren't wasted.
Haha...

Back to mugging!!

The Ultimate Bad Scratch Day!!!

2008-04-28T17:55:00.003+08:00

Facebook Scratch and Win...

Spent 200 credits...

Got how many tokens???

You guess???

20 TOKENS!!!

WTF!!!

And it adds on to my earlier misery from my maths exam and french test results...

Sucks BIG Time man...

Never play Scratch and Win if you are in a bad mood that day...

Easy numbers...

2008-04-27T22:08:00.006+08:00

Just checked my seat numbers...

Damn easy to remember.

2 of them some more the same sia.

46, 22, 22 - all my lucky numbers~!!! Ha!

At least this sem i don't need print the exam timetable,
or go waste cognitive resources to memorize the no.s,
or go squeeze with the crowd just to check my seat numbers sia.
Haha!

And i'm just reminded of how my O level registration no. is easy to remember also...

8 numbers: first 4 numbers is the school code , last 4 is individual code.

Mine's 0123!! Happy i got a easy-to-remember no. that time...

But in the end, don't think i did too well for that... Hmmm... Nvm.

Back to study... or maybe sleep... so tired..........

All the Best people!!! =D

斗牛要不要

2008-04-10T00:00:00.006+08:00

Can't wait... so i finished watching online.. Lolx..
Not bad not bad, quite nice~!!
Esp when there;s shuai ges and mei nus...
Haha!!

He Jun Xiang is super shuai as usual...
Especially when he plays basketball~!!!
Can't take my eyes off him sia...
His eyes... Oh my god... Haha...

But i like Zi Cong (acted by Li Wei) better!!!
He's so damn devoted to his xiaojie, Sheng Xue (Hebe), and did so many things for her~!!
From small things like putting her medicine in her bag, to big sacrifices like protecting her from the Swiss blade, from her father's cane...he practically did everything for her!!!
Too bad such person only exist in idol dramas...

Luckily i finished this before exams, otherwise i surely can't concentrate. Haha! Enjoy!!

Tant besoin de toi

2008-04-06T00:35:00.004+08:00

This is probably the first french song i really liked sia..
Damn catchy..
Enjoy!

Waste my time...

2008-04-05T02:33:00.004+08:00

This is crazy...
The most retarded thing i've ever seen...

If she's gonna [laughs] one more time...
I'm going to go crazy~!!!

Spelling is wrong all over the place!
Everything is so weird!!
Someone please kill him...

Which retard will ever read this lar???
FaintS!

The littlest things....

2008-04-04T17:01:00.002+08:00

I found a dollar on the bus!!!

Muahahaha....

Yup, it's always the littlest thing that brightens your day...

Lolx..

New show to watch...

2008-04-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

Finally finished that damn paper...
MAde so much sacrifices yet not a very good product comes out of it...
Sighs...
Time to take a break~!!
Lately got this new drama gonna show on SCV...
Hebe and He Jun Xiang are in it man!!!
Both my idols~!!! Definitely gonna watch~~
Hope it doesn't clash with my exams~

Talking about my exams.. Got back my maths test...
Guess what...
I got 101~!!!
Muahahaha....
First ever full-marks paper in my entire NUS life sia...
But unfortunately 101 will be round down to 100, cos the comp system don't recognise 101... -_-
and 99 will still remain 99...
how unfair~ :S

Pissed...

2008-03-29T02:58:00.003+08:00

Was on the wrong track aLL these WHILE~!!
Omg....

Now back to square 1, Damn it!!
and only 2 days!!!
@$#@#@$#@$!@%$^%^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i'm super pissed..
don't talk to me.

赌场风云~~ And many HK favs...

2008-03-27T22:23:00.016+08:00

After watching so many dramas of different cultures,
I still love HK dramas the best!!!

HK dramas, especially TVB dramas~!!
They usually have the depth, have the smooth flow of storyline...
And storylines are usually well thought of, full of clever schemes and devious plots，

and funny too..

Just finished Safe guards... Quite nice!!

And right now i'm clinging onto every episode of Dicey Business ~~
Very nice and touching...

Having watched quite a few HK movies, of course i began to take notice of some TVB actors... Heh.

Like Kevin Cheng from Under the Canopy of Love...
( He was the Best Actor 2006 for that series too)
and Trimming Success...

DR.. feel happy rite.. Charmaine is in the pic too...Don't drool too much aR! lol!

Ron Ng also caught my attention in Revolving Doors of Vengeance.. But so far that's the only nice drama he acted in...

Joe Ma... what can i say?? he definitely has the charms... A pity he's already 40...
Charmed me in The Gâteau Affairs, Revolving Doors, Lady Fan and Maidens' Vows...

Frankie Lam... Also quite cute, but 41 liao... and already taken anyway... by none other than the female lead of Revolving Doors, Kenix Kwok...
Some leading series he acted in... Face to Fate, Placebo Cure, Ten Brothers and the Virtues of Harmony series...

Yup, they are a couple in real life too~

The upcoming seems like a big production... Many big-shot actors and actresses acting in this one... including actresses like Jessica Hsuan, Charmaine Seah, Myolie Wu; and actors like Joe Ma, Ron Ng, Raymond Lam, Michael Miu etc...
Can't wait for SCV to show this!!

Take care of your health!!

2008-03-25T22:54:00.003+08:00

I'm reminded of something today...

Health's important no matter what age you are
Be mindful of your health constantly
Life's precious
It can be so vulnerable sometimes
No one knows what may happen tomorrow
Do appreciate the people we have around us

I'm gonna hug my mom later.

Yesterday....

2008-03-25T09:05:00.005+08:00

11am: JJ told me he's not coming for lect, Melissa also not coming either.

2pm: I left my textbook after lecture. When i went back 15 mins later (only 15!!), it's gone. @#%#@!!

5.30pm: A crazy storm broke out... only right after my lessons, when i was about to return home.. And guess what?? yup, no umbrella...

7pm: I realised i forgot to close my bedroom window (only one of the rare times i forgot!), and my bro went out without closing it either. In the end, my entire room was drenched!

My bed, with a layer of bedsheet, 2 layers of thin mattress, a thick layer of spring mattess plus a layer of cardboard at the bottom... when i lift up all the mattresses, the cardboard was dripping wet!!!
My notes... all inks were smudged!! can even see the whole series of inkblots we learnt in our secondary school chemistry.. wow.
My books... all wet!
My laptop... A miniature waterfall when i lifted it! i still don't dare switch it on yet.

8pm: My wisdom tooth, which has given me trouble over the past few days... finally gave me its best shot of pain... My jaws hurt too.. so bad that i can't even open my mouth big enough to bite a fishball... Had to take a panadol to stop the pain...

9pm: My bro's mug was so near the edge of the basin... forever.. can't he put it inner?? When i was brushing my teeth, i accidentally sent it over the edge... And of course, being non-plastic, you know what happens... What an omen!!!

Think i'm too tired after all these emotional dips, that i did nothing at all after that and fell asleep at 11... probably one of the earliest bedtime i've ever had this month... or even this sem...

One conclusion: I hate yesterday!

STRESSSED ~~~

2008-03-23T00:41:00.003+08:00

So i must complain here...!!!

And that must be also why this is the third blog of today...

I suddenly feel tis sem super no life sia..

Don't know why this sem my timetable so packed, workload also so heavy as compared to my previous sems... Tian arh... So busy like hell...

And it seems to me that almost everyday people were talking to me about term papers, working hard, projects, exams and jobs... Which leaves me no room for taking a break from all these stress~!!! So much so now i also have nothing else to talk about except all these~~!!!! *Faint!*

Ok, maybe except CSC which allows me some kind of breather... Otherwise i'm really going insane soon sia...

I need this...

BADLY~~~

Euthanasia

2008-03-22T23:13:00.004+08:00

Oh my god.. the poor french lady...
It's bad enough she contracted such a terrible incurable cancer...
Which disfigured her terribly...
Her kids got scared and actually ran away from her...
To lose your pretty looks, to lose your sense of smell, taste and sight, to be shunned away by the rest of the world is really devastating enough... And now her own kids got frightened of her as well... Sighs...

No wonder she pleads for euthanasia...

But hey, no matter how terrifying she looks, she's still their mom right... Wa lao... SOCIAL SUPPORT is important~!! SOCIAL SUPPORT!! Probably because of the unbearable pain, her pessimism of the disease, and also due to lack of social support... She killed herself (most probably, cos no details given) eventually...

Poor lady...

One probably needs lots of courage to continue living with a disease like hers...

Double bombs

2008-03-22T20:46:00.002+08:00

I just found out...

not just one... But BOTH of them were ....

Arrggghhhh... why like that??!?!!??! :'-(

Dashed hopes once more.. Guess i've to look elsewhere again~~

Sighs..

Haha~

Which handphone to buy???

2008-03-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

This is what i asked my mom endlessly over the past few days... as i racked my brains on which one is the best for me...

Design wise, it has to be Samsung and LG liao... maybe 1 or 2 models from Motorola and another few from Sony Ericsson...

User-friendliness, i think Nokia won hands down... and Sony Ericsson second on the list...

Functions wise, no doubt...Nokia and Sony Ericsson. In fact the top 10 mobile sets in CNETAsia all belong to these 2 giant brands.

And of course the most important factor...
the price.

What's the use of having all these qualities and features if it's not within my budget??
Lolx...

Anyway... after a super long consideration and a series of elimination...
It boils down to W890i and N81.
Actually i also considered W910i and W580i... cos they both looks really sleek and stylish and the features are not bad too... But i heard W910i has lots of lag problems...typical of SE OS. I really liked W580i a lot and it's relatively cheap too...but it has many negative feedbacks too.

W890i so far has not yet any major problems and the ratings at cnet is quite high too...
the camera has 3.2 megapixel..
its sony walkman phone technology sounds promising...
plus its slim and mocha-tinted body is much more attractive than N81's design...
It's also in candy-bar form, and this design has less issues as compared to slides, swivels or clamshell forms...
And it cost about $268... though don't sound cheap, but the promotion claims the price is after a discount of $360 already. Plus there's free Sean Kingston tickets...

But N81 has Wifi functions,
and it has dual stereo speakers...something that W890i lacks and that draws me to it a great deal after i've seen my mom's 6233 speakers too...
The screen is large and is of 1.6 million colours..
plus it's user friendly, much fewer complaints of lag problems than SE phones.
And also students only need to pay $199 for it~ Sounds perfect.
The design is the only factor.. it's a little obiang... and thick.
And i don't really like slide phones coz as mentioned above, it's a greater victim of wear and tear..

Soo.... it's design vs functions right now...
In the end, i picked the N81... due to the price factor as well as the speakers... Cos what i really want is a good music phone. The large 1.6 million coloured screen is also a great contributor... (Now i watch a few MVs with it.. and it's damn clear...) Of course, and also the WiFi connectivity... it's super convenient.. can read blogs and check emails with it -- for free~~~ (as long as you have the network that is..) Now i won't have to depend on GPRS and risk paying $6000 for my bills le sia... lol...

Plus now is the best time for me get a new line...
SIM card and registration waived.
50% off your original bill for 1st 6 months.
Unlimited SMS (with the typical 1st 500 smses condition attached).
Campus Calls free - outgoing included. (Capped at 333 mins)
Free 1 year Caller ID.
For my phone, N81:
I saved $100+ now for buying this phone at student rate.
They gave an additional 1 gb of memory card, so now i have 3gb in total.

So overall a very good deal indeed...
Those who wanna upgrade handphones now is a good time oso~!! Do it quick..
Think the promo ends on 14th Mar.. thereafter, may not have such a good deal liao...
Quick~~!!

Farewell A55

2008-03-10T10:05:00.003+08:00

It finally died of old age...
ok, maybe with a little push from me...

It served my dad for 2-3 years, then it was passed to my mom, and it served her loyally for another 2-3 years... Later. like a family heirloom or wat, it was finally given to me...

It was going well, though i dropped it frequently, but it is still in good condition... Until it finally couldn't take it last thursday, when i dropped it at the forum... Then it bade me farewell for good...

Siemens A55

Yup, so now i'm officially handphone-less these few days... That will explain why i didn't reply to any of your smses or calls... But don't worry, i'll get a new one soon (yes~! Finally~!!!).. So just bear with me for 1-2 more days yaR...

Ps: I SWEAR i didn't assasinate it, it really died due to accidental cause... =)

I struck rich???

2008-03-02T04:15:00.008+08:00

That's my first thought when i received this email...

UKNL FOUNDATION HEADQUATERS:
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And upon googling... it's just another scam.... as expected.
Sighs... how i wish it was real for once...

Testimonial of CSC...

2008-02-24T14:36:00.006+08:00

I think i'm beginning to like CSC better so far...

Though i can't tell for sure whether this positive feeling will maintain in future, this is what i'm feeling right now...

Ok, i can't say i joined the cca because i'm caring or kind or that i've the passion to help and care for the unfortunate... In fact i joined only because i don't have a cca and just nice WS's friend is in that committee so can jio me in.. Haha.. But hey, after interacting with the residents there, i find it not as boring as i thought to be.. On the contrary, i actually found it fun to interact and play games with the residents there, it even gives me a sense of satisfaction when i know i can really brighten their day...

The people in CSC are also some nice and friendly people... Given the antisocial me, i still don't know many of them, not close with any yet other than WS.. But from observation, i can tell they are very nice people... and given the nature of this CCA, this is not too unexpected...

But of course, who says only the very kind and caring people who can join this CCA??? Those who want to cultivate more 爱心 can also join wat, right??? Even WS also join le... who else can't ya??? (lolx... jkjk!!!)

Though i'll still continue to complain about meeting at an absurdly far location at such a disgusting time, and pull a super long face when i reached..., i'll still make it for every meeting and join more of the club's activities...

My only regret is that i didn't join this CCA earlier, because it's my last sem now and i've missed a good damn lot of their fun activities le...=(

Job shopping at career fair

2008-02-22T18:23:00.003+08:00

Yes man~!!!! Singapore beats Moscow in hosting the 1st Youth Olympics sia!!!
The first ever international major sports event in SINGAPORE~!!!
Exciting~~

We really have to give credit to the Singapore representatives for their excellent pitch and proposals, to be able to win the other giant competitors man..

Anyway, i just came back from job shopping... so tired.. Surprisingly, i stayed there from 1+ till the end... There are quite many companies.. think it's quite interesting for me... cos i found out there's lots of interesting jobs i din noe..plus lots of other information i learnt from the company representatives there. AND the basic pay are all above my expectations (maybe is my expectation super low)... haha.. interesting...hope i can get any of the jobs i want...

And of cos i managed to kapok lots of freebies...about 4-5 notebooks, 2 pens, a couple of notepads, 1-2 bags, big calendar, landyard, bookmark, and plenty, plenty of brochures~~~ lolx... was so struggling with the big bag of goodies on my way home sia...

Tired... i go rest liao.. dread to think i have to wake up early tomorrow again...

22/02/08...today must be an auspicious day...
nothing for half a year till today...

Met R today~~

2008-02-20T23:52:00.002+08:00

Haha... I finally met R in school today...

Actually i passed by him without noticing him...

Then he tapped on my shoulder and said Hi~!!

Hahaha...

But the sian part is... I wore specs to school today!!!
And this is like probably only the 5th time i wore in my entire NUS life~!!!
Arghh..

Lydia Shum

2008-02-19T22:33:00.006+08:00

Oh my god... got a shock just now...

Lydia Shum (Shen Dian Xia aka Fei Fei) has just passed away today...

Yet another familiar face gone...

She was diagnosed liver cancer about a year ago... And look what the disease had done to her...

Heart really goes out to her when i saw this photo...
shrunken to only half her usual size and in a wheelchair...
This is her when she attended the TVB 40th awards last november.
It's so heart aching to think that she must have passed away in an even smaller frame...

I think it'll take centuries to forget the bright smiles of this iconic 开心果 bah~~~

Past few days...

2008-02-17T22:47:00.003+08:00

V-day: Nothing much to talk about, since i had lessons from 12 - 8 without any break... ;( But at least i got a gift from tl and saw a shuai ge at a booth in sci.. :)

Friday: The cranberry's set up a booth in NUS~!! And I contributed too... just by talking to Bridget beside the booth~~~ lolx...

Saturday: Went for the usual morning meeting at Bishan... ( 950 am and all the way there!!! ) faints! Yesterday not bad, finally get to interact with the residents there... Taught them how to play basketball... haha.. some of them told me a few of them goes to city harvest church on saturdays.

Today: Went swimming with my mom, think i super long never swim liao... Swim a bit will get aches in the arms... Also, had a good rest the whole of today since i hardly had much sleep the past few days...

Random complaints:

Budget... Don't exactly know how much i'll get, but i think should be at most 300 only... sighs.

People... This is when my psychology stuff comes into practice.. A few people huh.. keep saying i'm what and what... Ok, i just listen and accept (happily or not, that's another thing haha..). Then when they more or less have a similar response/result, they usually tell me it's different mah, cos they have to do what and what, have what and what commitments, or simply just they have other more important priorities.
Now i see what it means by people usually attributes success/positive behaviours to internal reasons... and failures/negative behaviours to external causes... But strangely when judging others, it's vice versa, ie attribute negative behaviours to internal reasons.
Simple eg,
You fail because you're stupid. You scored A because you are lucky.
I fail because i don't think this is important, but i scored A because i'm smart.

Likes/Passion... I don't know why many people have this stereotypical thinking that liking something/ having a passion for something means you have to excel in it.. It's true that many a time, liking something gives you the motivation to do well in it or that doing well in something makes you grow passion in it. But that also does not necessarily mean you can't like something that you are not good in right?
In fact, the stiff competition has sometimes made me lose interest in whatever interest i have in the first place...
I remember some time ago, people asked me, "what do you like to do?"
Me, "___"
Then the next thing they asked is, "Then you know about this & this??" or "are you good in this or this???"
Me,"Not very good..."
Them, "I'm even better than you, and i'm not very interested so how can you say you like this thing when you're not even good in it/ well-informed about it??"

The equation seems to be: Like something = Good at it

LEvel of Interest...is really measured by how far you pursue it...

My 1st TOTO...

2008-02-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

I remember the chinese new year programme mentioned:

The lucky numbers for those born in the Tiger year are:
1,3,4

Then my mom had this Bingo Lotto machine which can generate random numbers.
(It's given to her by her colleague, who used it as a toto machine.)

I have never been interested in toto, cos our maths teachers always told us how slim the probability is to win anything... And it's really damn hard to pick the 6 correct numbers out of 45 lor...

But this little machine looks fun and interesting, plus i wanna test whether the lucky numbers are accurate or not, so i decided to give it a try just for fun.

1st time: i put all the 45 balls in it, and randomly draw 7 numbers (system 7)

2nd time: i picked out all the numbers which contain only 0, 1, 3 and 4s. Eg 1, 3, 4, 10, 11, 13, 14, 30, 43 etc... I also added the '08' ball.. everyone knows it's a huat no..., how can i bear to deny its chance of being chosen??? lolx... Then i put these chosen balls in the machine and then randomly draw 7 numbers from it. The 7 numbers were: 08, 10, 11, 31, 40,42,43. (I can't rem how 42 get into the machine le.. haha)

And my mom really went to buy both combinations yesterday man...

Then she asked me to check, along with 1 that she bought herself, as well as one shared ticket with her colleagues which contains 5 combinations bah.

The shared ticket... Only 1 or 2 numbers out of all the 5 combis!!! Faints!

The quick pick she bought... None came out.

My 1st combi.. 1 or 2 numbers came out.

My 2nd... 4 numbers. I was so dui man... Cos initially i thought 1 more number i would have won a prize~~ Later i told my mom, she went to check and then told me 4 numbers is also considered a winning ticket... So in the end, we won the Group 6 cat (3+1 combi). The lowest pay-offs....

But nonetheless, it's still a little good piece of luck~~ ^_^

Some side info:
The winning toto: 05, 08, 17. 30 (argh, i had this no. in my machine!!), 31, 43. Additional: 42.
The Group 1 cat got 2 million eACH!!!! walao... one of the highest pay-offs ever lo...

Whatever is yours will be yours....
I heard the 10 million big draw is coming sooon..... heh.

Happy CNY~!!!

2008-02-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

Ha.. though a bit late, but still wanna wish you guys a Happie Ratty Year~~!!!!
(doesn't sound very nice though... haha...)

The same visits again...
1st day: Went to 2 grandmas' place, and my brother's babysitter's place
2nd day: to my aunt's place..
3rd day: slack at home

Hmmm... this year was pretty boring, not much activities.. never visit people's place like last time... less angbaos also.. Plus the bakwas and pineapple tarts don't taste as yummy also... Range also not as much as last year's... Probably cos of the crazy prices of these food stuffs this year...

A box of Bengawan Solo pineapple tarts:
Last year - $18
This year - $23 (!!!)
Even with inflation and (the forever) rising oil prices, i don't see why there should be a 30% increase bah!!!

And the Lim Chee Guan's famous Ba Kwa is like 50 bucks a kilo??!!!?!?!?

FaintS~!!!

Expensive new year this year~~

But my mom still buys quite a bit of new year stuff nevertheless... maybe she's expecting guests.. but since nobody visit us so far... i think it'll all disappear to somewhere pretty soon... wahahhaha...

Hope you all had lots of angbaos~!! =)

Welcome to my life...

2008-02-06T21:44:00.003+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No, they don't understand me at all...
And they seemed to have no interest either...

Something for CNY...

2008-02-04T01:42:00.001+08:00

AFter a long walk.... I finally bought something for CNY~!!

2 tops and a pair of shoes~~

Bottoms... no money le..

Wear old one bah~ Haha...

I love RISK!!!!
Thanks Maria, you made e right choice~!! =D

An atom in the universe

2008-02-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

i've always known that we are very tiny in the black world out there, but i didn't realise how tiny... to the extent of being microscopic...

I've always thought our planets, our Sun and all the moons and stars make up a galaxy...

But no... our solar system is only 1 out of the 4-5 arms in our Milky Way galaxy. And there's like 1.5 million galaxies in the observable universe~~~!!!!!!! (note: observable universe)

AND each universe contains like 400 billion (not million) stars~!!!

I'm only 1 out of the 6 billion people on this planet, which is 1 of the 8 planets circling a star out of the 400 billion in the Milky Way galaxy, which is only 1 out of the 1.5 million (discovered for now only) galaxies in the universe~!!!

I just realised my existence in the universe is so teenily tiny man....
just like an atom in relative to the universe!!!

RAndom voices inside me

2008-01-28T23:53:00.000+08:00

So bored...yet i'm not supposed to be, cos the tutorials are always there for me...

I'm sick of mugger life~~And i've only just started flipping...

I wanna go swimming~~But no one seems enthu..

I need to fill up my blank uni resume~~Tis my last sem.

But i dun have passion for volunteer work... And i'm probably the only one there.

I need to find a job...But what job suits me???

Wanna join more activities... But there are always seem to be circumstances n obstacles obstructing...

I dun like to study... But i dun like to work even more..

Girls' Day-Out @ Settler's Cafe...

2008-01-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

After Ws and wei's lessons ended, i joined them for a small gathering at a nearby settler's cafe...

Okay, the place does not have the most fantastic location or ambience, the no. of our group isn't big too, but surprisingly we can have much fun there too... lolx..

Played Taboo first... This game really depends on the people playing de sia.. I remember the last time i played it wasn't this funny... esp WS who is quite unique in her description...

WS: This is the clothing which holds the clothing that holds the lowest part of your body stick together...

Me & Wei, look at each other: ?????????????

Wanna guess???
It's shoelaces~~
Faints~~ lolx...

Sometimes before the person could finish her clues, we just just shoot wild guesses which is real funny lar~~

Wei: This is something in cinema, when you go for movie... and...

Me: popcorn??
hold hands???
kiss????

I think it took Wei and me quite some time to stop laughing and Wei to continue her clues..

(Ans: White Screen)

WS: They have this when 2 people got married...

Me: sex??
Wei: babies???
Me: consummate???

LOLx..

(Ans: Wedding)

WS: This is something you need to change when you are very suei...

Me: Luck!!
Wei: Underwear!!!
Me: Panty!!!

HAHAHAHAha.....
(I apologize if anyone find the above usage of words quite crude, but i tink during a girls' day-out there seems to be less restraint on our words.. LOlx...)

WS: Walao.. since when do people change their underwear when they are suei?!?!?
Wei: Got ar.. You know they always say about having more luck when you wear a red one???

haha!

(If anyone still bothered to know... Ans: Feng Shui)

Then a few times Wei have the answer but she shouted it out in Chinese instead...cos she can't recall the english name for it at the moment... So i simply translated it and got it~!! WAhaaha...

WS: This is something you get when you are in your 50s/ 60s...

Me: CPF??
Wei: Geng Nian Qi!!!
WS: Yes!! What's that in english???!!!
Wei: ... i know this word... but i can't remember... arrghhh.. what is it??!!
Me: ... Menopause!!!

Haha!!!

Played Cluedo next... This is quite an exciting and brain-exercising game... finding the murderer, weapon and location... Sometimes WS quite jian ar, she named the person and weapon she had... But i managed to break her bluff: by calling the exact same things she called... lolx!!

Later went to Coffee Club to chat and enjoy the cakes.. the 3 of us had a heart-to-heart chat for quite a long time...

Hah.. overall really quite enjoyable and definitely quality time spent..
^_^

Busy sem...

2008-01-12T21:23:00.001+08:00

Look at my Mons and Thurs man... And these are only lectures...
I haven't even add in any tutorialS yet~~~ faints!!!
End at 8pm 3 days a week!! Can't imagine..

I rem the last time i had 6-8 lessons is during my 1st sem lor... lolx...
I really ended with what i begin with sia .. Haha..

I predict this gonna be a super busy sem~~
But i don't know why i'm so excited to start this sem... Maybe it's cos it's my last sem, or maybe it's cos i'm taking mods with some of my closest friends (and ironically this will be the 1st time i'm classmates with them~~!! lolx..), or maybe it's cos this is the first sem i'm taking mods i really liked.. I don't know... but i'm excited~~ wahahaha... i'm even checking out the workbin already!! (cos i usually only start looking at workbin at the 3rd wk of sch...heh..)

Lalalala...

But....the best of the lot...
And now he's gone... Sighs..

Bidding... (2)

2008-01-11T19:09:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha.... After a looonnnnggggg battle with the stupid CORS, MF finally got Universe!!! WAHAHAHAHA.... and it's only 700 points!!! I can't believe it man~~ I mean, as compared to mine which is 800+ lar..

Now we can finally take a mod together~!!!!
No more dropping of Universe, no more of researching of new modules to take...lolx!!
YEAH MAN~!!!

I still thought her chance of getting it is quite slim de sia.. Maybe only 30%.. Haha! But she got it she GOT IT~~ hahaha! Must go thank my lucky stars... (which probably isn't alot...)!!!

I'm a happy girl this sem man... oh, except for Social Cog *ahem*, that is.. haha...

Sometimes when you really want something real bad, the Gods up there may hear you...

Bidding...

2008-01-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

Felt like the king this sem man...
As this is my last sem, i can throw all my P and G account points without a worrY~~!!
So i can basically take whatever i want this sem.. hiak hiak hiak hiak...

Plus i still have 2 SUs left.. wahahha... i think i'm gonna be super slack this sem.. lolx..
Anyway, because i have 2 SUs, i have to take 2 outside modules to utilize my SUs..

Besides SUs, i also wanna utilize my P and G points too~~~
And disappointingly one of my top priority modules, living with maths, is only 1 G point.
So i had to throw all my 1300+ G points for universe.. lolx..

For P points, only 1 module left and yet there isn't really any expensive module in arts.. other than language modules and JJ is taking it.. so.. ok lor...
Threw all my 1696 (haha, sorry i can't help bragging...) P points for that module, and i think that was the highest bid across all lecture groups of that module le bah.. Hahaha!!!

But there was also a great offset to this high positive feeling...
I've lost a lot... in terms of the monetary sense... sighs...
Guess this is life~

Have to be mindful at all times... and do cherish it while it's in your possession.

Updates...

2007-12-30T02:40:00.000+08:00

Some updates for the lower half of Dec...

15th DecBefore i went to vietnam, i met up with mf for a short lunch...
After a long and hard time planning, mf finally recommended Ajisen...

Here's what we ordered:
Mf, a vegetarian currry ramen
Me, a set with seafood ramen with ice lemon tea, a pumpkin croquette, 2 scallop sushis and 2 mochi ice-cream..

Sounds not bad right? but no, the seafood ramen is not tasty at all, in fact it's quite bland. The ice-tea is probably 60% ice and only 40% tea. For the mochi ice-cream it taste like cold thick kuei with a smear of vanilla ice-cream only sia!! Faint! And the bill comes up to 18.50 nett!!! What the...
Kena cheated...

MF is satisfied with her ramen and side dish..

But definitely not me...

16-19th Dec
went to Vietnam with my family.
Shalll blog next time..Haha..

21st Dec
went out shopping with MF and WL, walk walk and view the christmas lightings...
then it had to happen..

23rd Dec
meet m1 gang for dinner... at wisma ichiban restaurant...

Long time no see!! Everyone hadn't changed... haha..

The spread...
We actually ordered 3 of the same sets for 5 people!!! lolx....

Then went to coffee bean to talk about the old times...
It's been 3 years since we met le!! time flies siah~!!!

Will we still be wearing these same shoes the next time we meet??

26th Dec

watched warlords with mom.
because got 2 complimentary tickets..
Initially wanna watch cos got shuai ges like jing chen wu and andy lau...
But in the end i think it quite sucks...
Super boring, violent, and it's all about wars and killings...
In the end everyone died.
it's quite heartbreaking how these people use their lives in exchange for almost anything and everything...seems sad how lives can cost so cheap...
After stepping out of the theatre, I can still feel the pain in my heart lor...

27th Dec

Watched National Treasure with hy wei and dr...
This was super nice lor.. No wonder it's no. 1 in the US box office lor..
Or perhaps it's due to Warlords that influenced my rating of this movie..
But anyway i think it's so much better lor... it's humorous, exciting, adventurous plus the young lead actor is cute too.. Haha!

28th Dec
Met at jh's place for a gathering... Played tennis and then watched Pirates of the Caribbean 3 at his house... Fell asleep most of the time though.. Haha... Was quite a tired yet relaxing day.. =)

30th Dec
Went to send AM off today.. She's just been back for no longer than 2 weeks and now she's gone again... Took many photos.. will blog nxt time also..

sleepy liao
Ciao

My 21st Bday Party!!!

2007-12-27T00:19:00.001+08:00

Big disappointment with my grades.. sighs..
Though it's supposed to be a happy season, but for me, tis a bad month to be gloomy...
Hah... starting from my sprained ankle to my lousy grades and other painful events..

Nvm.. Shall blog about something happy.. My 21st Bday!! haha.. been a procrastinating till now.. As usual.. Haha.. ok, i'll try to update all before the hols ends..=)

The party turned out to be quite a success despite so many last minute plans.. lol...because my last exam is on the 5th.. and the party had to be on 7th because DR had to leave singapore on the 8th..so i only had 2 full days to really prepare and think of everything for the party.. so it's quite messy... then a few friends last minute suddenly say they can make it... and i've to order more food again... It's really quite messy,in fact on the day itself i'm still buying the BBQ stuffs and all... And by 6.30pm the BBQ still hasn't started and i'm still upstairs preparing~!! those who've been up here can tell how hectic it was.. Ah gong even told me he's a little dizzy jus looking at us... lolx!

Have to thank lots of people for making this party work.. Am really grateful~~ I really have to make a list of credits sia..

First of all, have to thank my mom to help me with the catering and cake.
And gangst8rs too!! Without their help, my party would nt be able to start at 8pm even!!
MF and WS for supporting and helping me to think of ideas of the party..
WS for helping me.. errmm... beautify my room... haha...
MF, WS, HY and WL with my shopping of food and necessities for the party.
MF JX and WL for preparing my gift cards
HY and MF for marinating the chicken~
JX and DR for starting the BBQ
WS WL and JX for selecting songs
WS for being my sole DJ for the party.. lol..
JX for being my camerawoman that day...HAha..
And gangst8rs plus ahgong who managed the whole BBQ cooking!!
So is 全体出动 man... lol...

Thanks to everyone who came to my party too~!! =D

Some flashbacks on that day...

My Pri School clique~~
Super long nv c em liao!! Glad they can make it~~ =D

My cousin~

Gangst8rs~!!

Ahgong & his grand-daughter~ lolx..

"Hello~ yes bridget ar~ Oh my place ar? Turn left & turn right...ya ya..."
Didn't know what's behind me till i saw this photo!! =S

.Formal family photo.
Ah mah say, "cannot smile!"
=X

Me & YT~

Then WL had to leave le...so took one before she leaves!!
Thx wL for e help!! haha!

CLaud & Bridget, 2 of my best budds in NUS..

Yeah.
this too-cute-4-me minnie mouse ears that
gangst8rs forced me to put it on throughout that night... =S
So cute... they can't stop pinching it... =SSS

All these while...
HY, WS, ahgong and other gangst8rs helped cook the food...
Busy busy busy...

Then it's Cake-cutting time!!!

Pri sch frienZ

Sec Sch frienZ=)

Best JC pals~

The FASS Peeps!!!

Engineers of the future...
Eh, me so outcast...

The NPCC~!!
Why this name?? U'll nv guess why de.. lolX!!
*ASk me ask me!*

My Dad and Mom...

Plus my aunt and cousin

The food....
I heard it's not bad...
Esp the siew mais and the chocolate eclairs...
I din touch any and it's all gone. =(

Entertaining themselves with the Jega game..

Diff color ICs??

DR and HY And their Big Bottle of Vodka..
Tipsy DR: "No no no... i'm not drunk k.. ha hah aha..."

~.During the Stayover.~

~.My Presents.~

From Bri and Claud...
Wrapped & UnWrapped
(till now i still have no idea what's the 2 pieces of china for... lolx...)

From Pri School Clique, NUS peeps and my cousin...

From Gangst8rs..
Gangst8r made it possible...
Me and Edison finally together!!
WAhahaha!!!
Muacks!!

This ah ma card is supposed to be my birthday cards sia...
Looks familiar rite??
YEah, it's our grandma's favourite brand of powder...
What does this symbolize huh??
-_-

Oh ya.. and how can i forget this?? =SS

Haha... i wish to thank you all again for the lovely gifts!!
Certainly received them with lots of love~~ lolx..
^_^

With Love...
lots of...

MeRry ChrIsTmAS!!! =)

2007-12-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

Went to catch up on some of the episodes of Witch Yoo Hee i missed.. And i end up finish watching it.. lolx.. couldn't resist the temptation..

Wanna share a little spoiler...
The ending is a happy one but it kind of sux..

Hah.. yup that's all..

And ya...

Merry Christmas!!=D
~May all your dreams come true this season~

(And may all my suayness be gone thereafter~~)

So tired and sick..

2007-12-22T01:44:00.000+08:00

Just came back from vietnam 2 days ago...

Overall it's moderately interesting and quite fun...

Good food over there.. will blog when i hv the time next time...

But today...
Why such thing always happen to me????
I'm sO sick and tired of this already.
When will this ever stop?

I really hate everything that caused what happened today...
I hate God, Heaven, Fate, that person and most of all...
I hate ME..
so tired and sick today...

Cycling~~

2007-12-15T09:47:00.000+08:00

Finally went cycling yesterday after such a long loonng time....
In fact this is only the first time in the year i went cycling lor~!! Finaallyy.. i get to see the sun again~!!

And miraculously... it didn't rain~!!! =D Though there's really dark clouds and all... Weather forecast even said to have showers with thunder... But it didn't rain!! haha!!

Bright and Sunny ahead~~

But Dark Black Clouds looming behind

Half super bright sunshine, half ominous looming clouds..
What a weird weather~~

If there really is a suei quota everyday for me, and my sueiness didn't come in the form of rain...then it would turned into forms... cos i sort of fell down, and twisted (today i realised i really sprained it!) my ankle... First time it happens to me also.. Don't know since when, but i tend to black out real easy these days...

1st time: Hit my toenail into an uneven plank...Only felt sharp pain... it was until i felt like my toe is in a pool of liquid (on my slipper) that i realise my whole nail came out!!! Don't know is loss of blood or the sight scares me.. I blacked out for a few seconds and almost faint...

2nd time: In US... fell down on my elbow outside my appartment.. Sharp pain.. but didn't realise it's bleeding till i reached home..where blood was flowing like nobody's business almost to my wrist le.. Again, don't know is too cold and hungry, therefore too weak, or is really scared of blood... I blacked out again.. This time more serious.. Cos i felt people supporting me, and talking to me.. But i can't see anything at all, can't feel myself walking also... almost faint also..

3rd time: Yesterday, thought it's only a minor skin-surface bruise and a slight twisted ankle.. But when i stood up, i actually felt nauseous! Even when i sat down, i could feel my ears blocked liao.. First few signs of fainting again... Why like that????!! I thought i was strong sia! Used to feel funny when people faint at the sight of blood... now it's happening to me too?!?!? No..i don't believe... must be cos first time it was really painful, second time must be cos i'm too tired, cold and hungry, third time... heat stroke! yeah, must be cos of the heat...

Luckily ws was there to help me... the others were like doing what... pirouettes??? when i'm sitting down with my twisted ankle?
???!?!??!?

Other than that, it was really quite fun... Long time never get hot and sweaty under the sun liao.. And near the beach too~~ Such a nice feeling.. Wahaha.. =D

Anyway i just read that sprained ankles usually take 1-2 months to heal!! Kns.. during the hols some more~!! =( And ya, hopefully i can still wear back my shoes after taking it off... haha...

Multi-lingual/genre/era Kbox!

2007-12-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating for so long... A little busy these days.. haha...

7th Dec
My Birthday PArty and a small sleepover!!! Hee... I'll blog about it nxt time~ haha..

8th Dec & 9th Dec
Dance camp...

Learnt hip-hop from Candy with the unforgettable "want it all~~", "more energy!!","ooomph!!" and all those torturous sit-ups~~

Main stuff learnt: "release" movements, "want it all~~" and "bang, receive, grab~" actions

Learnt lyrical hip-hop from Mornin... His dance choreography is super fast sia~~ lyrical hip-hop basically means that the meaning of the lyrics are shown in the choreo..which i can't remember.. something like "You make my life complete...makes me wonder.." and "donno-what life... (is it simple life??)" really can't remember.. lol...

Main stuff learnt: "spirited" fingers!! lolx...

Learnt lyrical jazz from Zee, our main instructor for all our past hip-hop classes..

Main stuff learnt: "mei-tui" roll, 2 types of pirouttes...

Basically i felt i got a taste of 3 different styles of dance.. quite interesting~~ haha...

10th & 11th dec
Watched Enchanted!!! IT's super nice sia!! I never knew curtain dresses can be so pretty!!!! LOVe the dresses she wore in the movie!! And not to forget the cute little chipmunk also~!! LolX!! Especially the part when the chipmunk kept trying to warn the prince of the witch.... but the prince never gets it... Finally when he got it after everything...

Prince to chipmunk: "Why didn't you tell me earlier??!"

Chipmunk: *smacks his head and faint*

Lolx.. his expression super funny sia.. Overall quite an enjoyable movie, i recommend you all to watch!! =D

yoga, latino and cardio aerobics lessons.. haha, tt's fun too.. but don't know why about 80% of the class is PRCs and all of them are girls... =S

yoga, we get to learn how to relax~~ lol... yeah, relax part by part of your body and listen to sounds of waterfall (i think..) some more accompanied by bird chirpings outside.. lol...

latino, we got a taste of some salsa, mambo and cha cha.. lol..

cardio, a very tiring class sia.. sit ups plus carrying weights!! weights!!! this is probably the first time i exercised with weights!! faints~~

However what i learnt is almost all forgotten as soon as i stepped out of the class.. memory super jia lat...

Yesterday
Stayed at home... Watched lots of tv online... Caught the first few episodes of Witch Yoo Hee i missed during the exam period.. Super nice!! love the song also!! haha!! And also a few episodes of HK dramas like Fei tian Xi shi...

Today
Went kbox today!! didn't know Adrian is such a good singer sia~!! He actually can hit the notes of Celine Dion, Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston!!! And he's a guy~~~!!! Faints... Tink he's my Ge Shen from now on sia.. lol..

Today was quite fun.. we sang songs of different languages~~ Chinese, English, Canto, Hokkien, Japanese, Korean and even French!!! lolx... Types of songs ranging from normal pop songs, ballad, soul, opera, hip hop, rap, and all kinds of cartoon songs!! (ranging from the little mermaid to pocahontas to slam dunk!!! Faint! first time i hear ppl singing slam dunk!! Lol.. Era ranging from 80's Bee Gees & Carpenters, to 90's Disney cartoon songs & those chinese zhang xue you's songs to the 20th century's luo zhi xiang & english songs like Hey there Delilah and Hey Ya... "Heeyyy...yaaa... Heey ya... Shake it, sh-shake it.. shake it like a polaroid picture~~~ " LOLX!!!

Don't mind going kbox again~~ wahahha... ^_^

Happy Birthday to me!!!

2007-12-04T23:24:00.001+08:00

Know i should be facing my notes right now instead of this laptop.. But i can't possibly miss blogging on my 21st right??

Lol...

First of all, my mom bought me a pair of Nike shoes 3 months ago for my birthday in advance le... Then a few ang baos from my aunts a few days ago... Hehe..

Then today quite a few people smsed me birthday wishes.. But unfortunately my handphone ran out of batt in the evening... So i couldn't receive it till now.. And as my phone is one of the older generation ones with the pathetic sms storage amount, i've been kept busy deleting old messages to receive new ones... Thanks lots for remembering!!! ^_^ Quite touched that some of them are whom i haven't been in contact for quite some time already~~ =)

Also, many people wished me to have an enjoyable bday... But unfortunately, i still have a paper tomorrow to mug for... Sighs... So how can i enjoy sia????!?!?! I even had to spend my birthday in school reading notes lor.. RoarS!!

Anyway, just finished a cake my mom bought for me~~ Actually it's 2 cakes~ hahaha!! 1 black forest and 1 apple pie~~!! Yum yum!! And she even wished me HAppy BIrthDAY!!! =D Sounds real touching that my mom have such sweet gestures right?? =)

Yeah, I would have thought so too if i hadn't had to ask her to buy the cake and still have to give hints before she wished me.. Cos i know from past experiences, that if i don't hint or anything, i would get none man... tsk tsk...

Hahaha... But still overall not that bad la..

HAPPY 21st BirTHDaY to ME~!!!

1 more paper to go...

2007-12-04T11:01:00.001+08:00

Yesterday... adolescence... Super dead...

No time to finish~!! Spent too much time writing crap~!!!
1 and a half hours for 1st question!! And only half hour for the 2nd....

Didn't complete also... Sighs... The person sitting around me all manage to complete on time.. Saw them put down their pens 5-10 mins before the paper ends...

At most can only get C+ le.. sighhs........

1 more paper on wed... *Cross my fingers*

Then i'm FREEEEEEeeeeeEEEEeeeEEEEeeEeeee..... Hahaha...

The World Through My Eyes

Tribute To My Late Grandma 3: Her Last Struggles

Penpal

Tribute To My Late Grandma 2: Our Memories

Tribute To My Late Grandma 1- Her History

M1 outing/ Kitaro anyone??

My butt hurts like no tomorrow... but I survived.

Don't Ask.

Post with a grumpy note

2010~!! Hi I'm bacK!! ... to lament.

Remember The Time Of Michael Jackson

I kicked on my shin. :'(

Did anyone get weird calls recently??

What I've Done on a Sunday

Everyone is so happening except me!!! :(

Another of my random ramblings

What I've Done during my off day

My grandma's here again!

My grandma comes to live with us!! :D

The New Taboo

Cleaning off the dust

Trick

Photo competition

...

RAnts...

Singapore's F1 Grand Prix~

Painted Skin

Read! Singapore, volunteer workshop, storytelling competition

Orientation

Shiok-est day so far...

1st time at kuishinbo...

Run NUS

Arts workshop, first time volunteering at kidsREAD

NUSSU welfare diary

First times...

Photo taking at Esplanande & Singapore Flyer!

WASTE MY TIME...

great haul from G2000

Induction programme

i miss school and my tv life..

1st week of work...

Graduation~!!!!

HK Disneyland Lucky Draw~!!

Good News!!

Badminton + Shopping at JP

No end to tests and exams...

My first job reply!!! :D

Food for thought...

My old "About Me"

3 weeks later after my exams...

Drawing personality

Final Sem Results

Pull Tabs

Mottos in life...

Thoughts on flaws, criticisms and transparency...

Suntec shopping, cycling @ ECP

Everyone so busy so soon...

Most satisfying paper ever...

Fantasy Couple

Haha!

1 thing to say...

The Ultimate Bad Scratch Day!!!

Easy numbers...

斗牛 要不要

Tant besoin de toi

Waste my time...

The littlest things....

New show to watch...

Pissed...

赌场风云~~ And many HK favs...

Take care of your health!!

Yesterday....

STRESSSED ~~~

Euthanasia

Double bombs

Which handphone to buy???

Farewell A55

I struck rich???

Testimonial of CSC...

Job shopping at career fair

斗牛要不要