End of exam mood...

After yesterday, it's three down and only 1 more to go...

Think the three are 九死一生 already... most likely to be goners liao...

Now left Developmental.. But i'm in a holiday mood already.. Been sleeping 8-9 hours per day these few days.. lolx...

And thanks to kl... i've started to get addicted to animes on youtube recently...
=S

Just realised there are quite a few dramas/ animes i haven't watch!! HAhahaha...

At least i know what i can do if i'm bored in US... lolx...

Got excited but yet still scared whenever i think of the trip~~

Craving for chocolates again!! These days i kept eating chocolates sia~ So much so that i even bought a Snickers after school today... lolx... The thing is, i don't remember liking Snickers in the past cos i find it too sweet.. But i actually find it damn yummy just now...

Oh no... How can i develop sweet tooth now?? I've no money to satisfy this craving in US man~~~!!! Ok... nvm, think i shall eat while i can NOW~ lolx.. =X

Tomorrow i'll go buy a mountain of chocolates and stuff myself crazy... Haha!

Suay Chronicles IV

Just thought these few days are quite suay...

suay enough for me to write another chronicle part...

My exam started last sat...

And i had to get sick on tues...

Not normal flu or cough...

But high fever....

So high that the medicine seemed quite useless... Only effective for less than 4 hours before i got another bout of high fever again...

I remember i even woke up in the middle of the night because of the fever... and couldn't get to sleep, even after taking the medicine... It was quite long before i could sleep again...

And this stupid fever actually lasted for 4 days!!! Making me feel so sick and so hard to concentrate on those notes through the week... The crucial period!!! When i've finally recovered... It's already the exam day itself...

Bio day... I thought of a lot of points to write for the essay question...

BUT i didn't write it down... because i took too long to do the MCQ...

Arrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh.....

And then today...

was browsing my CDs.. realised my David Tao's Ultrasound CD got spoilt for no reason~!!

It was left in the dust for quite some time, now the CD was like full of holes in its paint... Don't know why...

All i can think of was that maybe it has grown mouldy?? Or maybe roaches or some other species scratched it or something??

I really don't know... All i know is that it is a genuine CD~~!!!

How can such things happen to a zhen ban CD???!!!

Now the CD can't be played anymore... Cos when it is played, the tracks will get jammed quite badly...

Sigh.. there goes my CD~~


Then later as you all know, in the evening i had my second paper... Stats paper....

And again....

Why did i forget to bring my tutorial questions????

Why did i ever think that the textbook wun help me during the exam???

Most importantly... WHY THE HELL DID I FORGET THAT THE DF DENOMINATOR IS THE ERROR DF???????!!!!!!!!!!!!


WWWWWHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







Ha... Ok... let off some steam liao.. Now must prepare for tomorrow's paper le... Haiz...

Why the hell did i forget about df denominator???

Yeah... Why????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It cost me a freaking 27 marks all because i forgot what does the df denominator stands for!!!!

It shouldn't be a problem actually... because it's an open book exam.

There are always the tutorials to help me remember and the textbook as well...

It would not be a problem...

If i had not forgot to bring the tutorials, or had diligently brought the textbook to the exam hall...!!!!!!

It would not be a problem also...

If the notes had mention somewhere in any corner about the denominator...

But no, the notes didn't give a single clue to what the denominator stands for...

I stared at the first question for like half an hour!!!

Not knowing how to do at all...

When it could have been easy...

;-'(


ROAARRRSSS!!!!!!!!!!


I should have known it when it rained that heavily today...
An ominous sign indeed...

Dear Ah Gong...

Dear Ah gong...

Thanks for writing me a short essay for consolation...

as well as that extra info that lesioning amygalda "will also lead to indiscriminate sexual impulses/ mating behavior to any one or any thing in (my) environment"... =S

So, to thank you... I've decided to publicize your MIDI here!!! Lol...
Shun bian let others listen to the MIDI that i've handed in. Hah...



Here's the original copy of JJ's midi file:

JJ's original midi

JJ, maybe you should just sell your midis sia~ Scarly can earn you your living wor~ Just don't forget to split profits with me when you do!! heehee...=D



I changed some of the instruments and named it autumn dream~

autumn dream (best played with Windows Media Player, Quicktime sounds sucky...)

Cos this song gives me the picture of someone reminscing past memories while walking in the park, on a day during autumn...

With red, yellow and brown maple leaves on the trees and the ground...

The memories... a little sentimental... yet bittersweet...

At the end, realised that memories are a thing of the past, like a dream that can't be changed...

So what matters is the future that we should look forward to, and not the past...




Yep, so that's the story behind this 1-min clip~ lolx...

Anyway, this really touching midi is done by JJ in only like, less than an hour??

Yes~ Less than 1 hour!!!

Omg.. and i took like more than a week to come up with a midi that don't even sound like a midi...=(

Life is really unfair man.. some people just have all the talents in the world.. =S

Haha.. jk. So thanks anyway ah gong, i really felt better after reading your message~ All the best for your exams too ya!

Also wanna thank all those who tried to cheer me up these days~ You know who you are~ THAnks! =)

The Case of the Missing things...

For the past few weeks, i've been losing little little things...

My thumbdrive is missing...
My hairclip is missing...
My brother's laser pen is missing...


And I've Totally NO IDEA where they have gone to!!!
All i could remember was i put them in the bag but i couldn't remember whether i have taken them out after that...
But no matter how many times i checked my bag, my drawer, under my bed, my tables...

I JUST COULDN'T FIND THEM!!



The most vivid memory I could recall is the laser pen..
Scared that i would forget to bring it, i keep the pen in this pocket of my bag hours before i went out. This pocket is also where i kept my wallet.



So when i take a bus, i would unzip that pocket, take out my wallet and zap my EZ-link card... Halfway through the bus journey, i wanted to make sure that the pen is still in my bag...

AND IT'S GONE!!!!!



What the...

It must have dropped out when i took out my wallet!!




Yesterday, i finally decided to wash my bag after like a decade..

Empty out all the contents from all the pockets...

Lifted it up.. and i heard coins jingling...

Weird..

I thought i have emptied all the pockets already?

Check again...

Yes, nothing in any of the pockets...

But i can feel there's coins and other items in between the layers of the bag...

Imagination ran wild...

Could this be hidden treasure??

But then immediately remove the idea, because i remember no jingling of coins when i first bought the bag... And i don't own any treasure too... Sigh...

Then how did the things get there?

I searched the bag for hidden pockets or holes that could have allowed so many items to slip through...

None.

Couldn't be...

Try again...

Turned the whole bag inside out...

Searched every hem and every single stitch, leaving no stones unturned...



ALAS!!

There's this tiny 1-cm hole at the edge of that pocket where i put my wallet.

Out i retrieve...


Several coins...

A blue pen...

My hairclip...

My thumbdrive...

and My brother's laser pen!!!

Oh my god... I'm truly amazed that such a tiny hole of that size could actually let so many stuff slip through it!!! LoL...

To think i thought i'm such a muddlehead over these past weeks...
How could i have doubt myself in the first place???
Tsk tsk...
Haha... =X




Moral of the Story: Wash your bag more often

I think...

I think...
Sometimes people are mirrors of yourself..
They reflect how you treat them, how you behave towards them..

People will be nice to you if you are nice to them..
People will share secrets with you if you share with them too..
People will also talk bad about you if you talk bad about them..

So if you notice people around you are not treating you as well as you expect, perhaps you should think of how you treat them in the first place.



But then sometimes, when you are too nice, people will think that you are easy to bully. Perhaps they see niceness as a form of "weakness"... as bullying is often the case of the strong against the weak.

It's even worse when being nice isn't your only "weakness".
When you have quite a number of weaknesses and the stronger party knows about it, these weaknesses will always be handy for the Strong to use it against the Weak if they ever get into an argument.

It's made worse even further, when the Strong has few or no weaknesses that the Weak can use to counter.



At the end an argument, it only goes to confirm that the Weak is weak, and the Strong is strong.

The Weak
feels helpless, tired and hopeless
lose their confidence and morales
gets even weaker

The Strong
feels more assured of themselves
gains confidence
gets stronger



But is there such a great difference between the Strong and the Weak in the first place? Or is it the way they portray themselves that makes us perceive so? Everyone would have strengths and weaknesses, don't they? Perhaps the only difference is that the Strong knows how to emphasize their strengths and how to not reveal their weaknesses, while the Weak is one who is less cautious in hiding their weaknesses or perhaps is too honest in revealing their weaknesses?

So in order not to be Weak, we have to constantly improve ourselves as well as learning how to cover up all our weaknesses? Isn't it tiring to be like the Strong?





I think...
I'm too sensitive to how others think of me and would be very affected if someone criticises me or behave in a negative way towards me... Too sensitive that i would think of the issue for days, weeks, or even months... Would get so emotional too... that it would affect my entire mood..

I would then try to change my behaviours in order to compromise... To stop their critcisms as well as their negative attitudes.

But i realise... in the process of constant changing, i'm starting to lose myself...
And i came to realise that it's totally not worth it when the other party don't even realise i'm that affected, or they knew it but they didn't really care... I probably wouldn't be so affected if they weren't Friends... or so i thought...

Friends... i thought, after knowing you for some time... would know what makes you unhappy.. Especially when you have already shown your unhappiness for upteen times... every single time after the topic is broached. But i think either they don't get it, or it doesn't matter to them... Often at the end of the day, it's only you who got affected...

Hitting you several times and then subsequently telling you that that hit wasn't meant to hurt you... What is their aim at the end of the day? To prove that they are always right and you are always wrong?? It's even more absurd especially when the topic is about you and yourself!

Guilty unless proven innocent...




I wish... to lesion part of my amygdala sometimes...

Smiling is infectious~

Nothing much... Been forwarding my emails.. Which is like never clear for decades liao.. lolx...

(So ppl in my mailing list, you still have about 100+ mails coming in future~ ^_^)

Haha.. Ya, so anyway i came across this pic...




And i immediately thought of averii's 1st frog story... Haha... Maybe one of them in the picture is The Little Frog~!!! =X

Frog legs are yummy~!! Especially cooked with jiang cong.. Shiok! =D

Then i also came across this pic...




HAhaha.. the monkeys are soO cute and funny lar~! Especially the left one.. Smile till his grin couldn't be any wider.. Lolx...

Seeing the little monkey smile makes me smile myself..
So thought you guys would too~
Smile alwayS~!!! ^_^

Stressed.. is also desserts spelt backwards...

A slightly overdued post... haha...

Stressed...
Stayed in school to do project from 10+ to 8+ yesterday!!!
Aaaaeeeeerrrrgggghhhhh....
No time to study for developmental!!!
No time to do midi!!! All my midis sound sucky so far..
No time to study for stats test!!
No time to study for SOM test!!
No time to blog!!!

FAint~!!!
Eh.. no time for that also....

sighZ...

Sudden Cravings for desserts...
I don't know why...
But I have a sudden craving for
ice-cream!
cakes!!
chocolates!!!
and all kinds of desserts!!!!!!
Wahahaha...
*drools*













*DROOLSSSsssss*

BUT why my house have none of these???!!!=(


ARrrggghhhh...

*Even stronger craving*