Just thought that this song's lyrics really fits my previous post totally...
TONYA MITCHELL LYRICS
"Broken Promises"
Oh oh, yeah yeah
Ohhhhhh
Broken promises, that's what you're giving me, broken promises
No more, lonely nights
Baby that’s just what you told me (That’s what you say)
But you’re nowhere to be found
Something just ain’t right
Cuz I can’t get you to hold me (Here in my head)
Even when you’re around
Baby you promised me
That you’d always be there for me
Tell me (Tell me) what’s on your mind (Tell me what's on your mind)
What happened to the I love you's
The hugs and kisses and the rendezvous
What happened to me and you
You said you’d never change
What happened baby talk to me
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy
Now you’re breaking my heart
With all your broken promises
(Oh oh, yeah yeah
Broken promises
Broken
Broken promises
Oh oh yeah yeah
Ohhhhh)
Open up your eyes
Baby that’s what people tell me (That's what they say)
But it’s hard to let you go
I can’t take your lies
If you’re spending time with somebody else, then you gotta let me know
Baby you promised me that you’d never run a game on me
Tell me (Tell me) what’s on your mind (Ohhhh)
What happened to the I love you's
The hugs and kisses and the rendezvous
What happened to me and you
You said you’d never change (You said you'd never change)
What happened baby talk to me
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy (Just like candy)
Now you’re breaking my heart
With all your broken promises
You say you’re gonna do this (You say you're gonna do this)
And you say you’re gonna do that (You say you're gonna do that)
But you never come through (But you never come through)
And something’s different lately
Cuz you don’t call me baby
And I just don’t know what to do (I just don't know what to do)
(Broken promises, that’s what you’ve given me, broken promises…
Broken promises, that’s what you’ve given me, broken promises…
Ohhhhh
Broken promises
Broken promises, that's what you've given me, broken promises
Broken promises, that's what you've given me, broken promises
Oh oh, yeah yeah
Baby, baby tell me)
What happened to the I love you's (I love you's)
The hugs and kisses and the rendezvous (Ooh yeah)
What happened to me and you
You said you’d never change (You said you'd be there for me babe)
What happened baby talk to me
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy(Oh oh oh oh oh)
Now you’re breaking my heart
With all your broken promises
You say you’re gonna do this
You say you’re gonna do that (ohh)
What happened to me and you
You said you’d never change (Baby baby tell me)
What happened baby talk to me
You used to be sugar sweet just like candy (Now tou're breaking my heart)
Now you’re breaking my heart
With all your broken promises
Oh oh, yeah yeah
Broken promises
So quit breaking my heart with all your broken promises
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Good guys no more~
I changed my mind...
In terms of relationship, 男的没有一个是好东西 one...
Always thought those 斯文 and not so good looking ones would stay faithful...
斯文 - because they give me the impression that they are goody goody, so won't dare to betray their other one.
Not-so-good-looking - because generally these guys have less female species hanging around them, so there's lesser chance of them being attached, and if they were, there's a lower chance of them straying..
But i'm wrong...
I just realised that no matter how faithful the guy may seem to be, no matter how goody goody he looks, once he's constantly being surrounded by a group of girls (that doesn't include his girlfriend), he would stray~~ if there's any girl in that group who is better than his girlfriend.
It sucks.
Then what about the poor girlfriend?
The poor girlfriend who treats him so well all the while???
The poor girlfriend who trusted in him enough to let him be in the company of so many girls???
The same poor girlfriend who probably met so many other better guys but still chose to reject them because of him???
So is that guy staying in that relationship just because he haven't found a better one? If he found a better one, he would just changed without hesitation???
What happened, then to the mutual trust they should have? More so, the trust that the girlfriend had placed upon him??
What happened to the past happy memories that they have? Should all of them come to naught just because he met someone better, leaving the poor girlfriend clinging on to them Alone???
It's pretty scary how even the most 乖 looking ones behave like that... Then much less the rest...
It's even more scary when in the relationship the guy had given so many promises and he looked like the kind who would follow through his promises; and the girl had trusted and believed in him.
And yet, such a thing still happens.
All promises broken, all trusts betrayed, and beliefs being proven false. Things suddenly gets ugly now.
Then it makes me wonder, is it inevitable that guys would break all promises when they found a better girl?
And since 一山还比一山高, it's never possible to win in the endless competition...
So it's either you keep improving yourself to compete, or you constantly ward off those pretty pests to prevent the relationship from ending?? Isn't it so tiring???
Sighs...
Suddenly relationships don't seemed that fun anymore liao.
Because good guys are rare or probably don't exist in this world already...
So if you had a boyfriend, never let them get too close to other girls, especially those you don't know...
Or maybe better still... Know all their female friends~!!
Haha...
In terms of relationship, 男的没有一个是好东西 one...
Always thought those 斯文 and not so good looking ones would stay faithful...
斯文 - because they give me the impression that they are goody goody, so won't dare to betray their other one.
Not-so-good-looking - because generally these guys have less female species hanging around them, so there's lesser chance of them being attached, and if they were, there's a lower chance of them straying..
But i'm wrong...
I just realised that no matter how faithful the guy may seem to be, no matter how goody goody he looks, once he's constantly being surrounded by a group of girls (that doesn't include his girlfriend), he would stray~~ if there's any girl in that group who is better than his girlfriend.
It sucks.
Then what about the poor girlfriend?
The poor girlfriend who treats him so well all the while???
The poor girlfriend who trusted in him enough to let him be in the company of so many girls???
The same poor girlfriend who probably met so many other better guys but still chose to reject them because of him???
So is that guy staying in that relationship just because he haven't found a better one? If he found a better one, he would just changed without hesitation???
What happened, then to the mutual trust they should have? More so, the trust that the girlfriend had placed upon him??
What happened to the past happy memories that they have? Should all of them come to naught just because he met someone better, leaving the poor girlfriend clinging on to them Alone???
It's pretty scary how even the most 乖 looking ones behave like that... Then much less the rest...
It's even more scary when in the relationship the guy had given so many promises and he looked like the kind who would follow through his promises; and the girl had trusted and believed in him.
And yet, such a thing still happens.
All promises broken, all trusts betrayed, and beliefs being proven false. Things suddenly gets ugly now.
Then it makes me wonder, is it inevitable that guys would break all promises when they found a better girl?
And since 一山还比一山高, it's never possible to win in the endless competition...
So it's either you keep improving yourself to compete, or you constantly ward off those pretty pests to prevent the relationship from ending?? Isn't it so tiring???
Sighs...
Suddenly relationships don't seemed that fun anymore liao.
Because good guys are rare or probably don't exist in this world already...
So if you had a boyfriend, never let them get too close to other girls, especially those you don't know...
Or maybe better still... Know all their female friends~!!
Haha...
Friday, October 26, 2007
Argument to not studying
When you study, you learn.
When you learn, you'll discover that you don't know something.
When you learn more, you'll realise you don't know more things.
So the more you learn, the more ignorant you felt.
And since knowledge is limitless, and no one can possibly learn all knowledge, then why learn so much?
Especially when knowing that you are ignorant bothers you a lot...
Doesn't it increase your frustrations (due to your increasing ignorance) in your learning process?
So why study? Why learn??
No wonder they always say ignorance is bliss...
Hah...
When you learn, you'll discover that you don't know something.
When you learn more, you'll realise you don't know more things.
So the more you learn, the more ignorant you felt.
And since knowledge is limitless, and no one can possibly learn all knowledge, then why learn so much?
Especially when knowing that you are ignorant bothers you a lot...
Doesn't it increase your frustrations (due to your increasing ignorance) in your learning process?
So why study? Why learn??
No wonder they always say ignorance is bliss...
Hah...
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Male rape.. damn all rapists!!
Suddenly have this urge to blog about our project topic after watching the video on male rape...
Lately we're doing this project on the topic of male rape..
Then realised that there are so many sick people out there sia~
I thought raping girls are pervertic enough liao but to think that there are guy perverts who actually raped guys too!!!
Guys rape guys, imagine that!! And these rapists are not even gays!!! Wa lao!!
Before i research on this project, i never knew that guys can rape guys one lor...or at least not that prevalent. But i realised that there are actually quite a lot of male victims suffering out there.. in fact, 1 in 8 rape cases are males~!!! Especially those male child victims and those prisoners... Poor thing sia... Looks like it's an even blacker world out there than i thought...
Yet, many of the male rape victims chose to suffer in silence... Because in our current society, males are seen and therefore pressured to be strong and infallible. So most people would think that rape wouldn't have happened to males if they hadn't allowed it. Therefore, when a male gets raped, he would actually feel more humiliated than a female victim due to a male's ego thingy, social expectations and pressure... Imagine "weakling" and "not a man" labels being pasted on you... no wonder male rape cases were so underreported.
There was this case in the video, that this boy was raped by this stranger. During the whole process, he was so scared and stiffened that he couldn't defend himself. And he hated himself for that. But what made him hate himself even more is that he actually enjoyed it.
Most people, including even the victim himself, would think he must be a willing party since his body responded during the process. After all, "how can you consider yourself unwilling if you actually were aroused? And were enjoying it too?" ??
Male victims usually felt that they had lost their manhood, their pride, their self-esteem.. most of them even doubted and questioned their sexual preference after that (like "am i gay?"). Even worse, they think that this is their fault, fault for reacting to such violation.
This is the way rapists humiliate their victims, make them feel guilty of their own responses, and thus were more emboldened to continue such inhumane acts since 99% of the time victims would not report. That's why so many male cases were not reported and how so many of these bastard rapists managed to get off scot-free.
However, we have to understand that sometimes our body would respond beyond our control, as in, our body can still respond to sexual stimulation even if we don't consent to it. Being aroused is not equals allowing consent, and having penetration without consent equals rape.
Perhaps, it's the society's stigmatic perception of the infallible male that greatly contributes to this sad phenomenon, that causes male rape victims to suffer in silence. But males are not made of rock after all.. like the female species, they are human beings too and they do have feelings as well~ Females are not the only species who can suffer from rape, males do too, and may even suffer a greater trauma at that.
Sighs... And i thought being a guy would be much better than a girl, in fact i so wished that my next life would be born a guy. But now i realised that being a guy is no easy job too. Ok... guess i'll try to be nicer to guys from now on...
Lately we're doing this project on the topic of male rape..
Then realised that there are so many sick people out there sia~
I thought raping girls are pervertic enough liao but to think that there are guy perverts who actually raped guys too!!!
Guys rape guys, imagine that!! And these rapists are not even gays!!! Wa lao!!
Before i research on this project, i never knew that guys can rape guys one lor...or at least not that prevalent. But i realised that there are actually quite a lot of male victims suffering out there.. in fact, 1 in 8 rape cases are males~!!! Especially those male child victims and those prisoners... Poor thing sia... Looks like it's an even blacker world out there than i thought...
Yet, many of the male rape victims chose to suffer in silence... Because in our current society, males are seen and therefore pressured to be strong and infallible. So most people would think that rape wouldn't have happened to males if they hadn't allowed it. Therefore, when a male gets raped, he would actually feel more humiliated than a female victim due to a male's ego thingy, social expectations and pressure... Imagine "weakling" and "not a man" labels being pasted on you... no wonder male rape cases were so underreported.
There was this case in the video, that this boy was raped by this stranger. During the whole process, he was so scared and stiffened that he couldn't defend himself. And he hated himself for that. But what made him hate himself even more is that he actually enjoyed it.
Most people, including even the victim himself, would think he must be a willing party since his body responded during the process. After all, "how can you consider yourself unwilling if you actually were aroused? And were enjoying it too?" ??
Male victims usually felt that they had lost their manhood, their pride, their self-esteem.. most of them even doubted and questioned their sexual preference after that (like "am i gay?"). Even worse, they think that this is their fault, fault for reacting to such violation.
This is the way rapists humiliate their victims, make them feel guilty of their own responses, and thus were more emboldened to continue such inhumane acts since 99% of the time victims would not report. That's why so many male cases were not reported and how so many of these bastard rapists managed to get off scot-free.
However, we have to understand that sometimes our body would respond beyond our control, as in, our body can still respond to sexual stimulation even if we don't consent to it. Being aroused is not equals allowing consent, and having penetration without consent equals rape.
Perhaps, it's the society's stigmatic perception of the infallible male that greatly contributes to this sad phenomenon, that causes male rape victims to suffer in silence. But males are not made of rock after all.. like the female species, they are human beings too and they do have feelings as well~ Females are not the only species who can suffer from rape, males do too, and may even suffer a greater trauma at that.
Sighs... And i thought being a guy would be much better than a girl, in fact i so wished that my next life would be born a guy. But now i realised that being a guy is no easy job too. Ok... guess i'll try to be nicer to guys from now on...
Monday, October 22, 2007
Kbox
Last thursday, went to kbox with YT, JQ and YB (in order of earliest to latest).
It was kind of impromptu, cos i only knew about it that evening.
Just happens that i'm also freeand mainly because the special discount rate that day was irresistable, so just go lor...
HAha...
As usual, somebody late for 1 hour.
Anyway, wanna share with you all one huge discovery~~
There are NEW ENGLISH SONGS in KBOX NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeap, your eyes aren't playing tricks on you~
After so many years of torture with only english oldies and cheapskate MTVs (you know, the typical corny MTVs with girls in bikinis running in parks and beaches kind..), they finally have New English Original MTVs!!!!!!!!!
Like the latest Big Girls Don't Cry, Wait For You, Makes Me Wonder and so on~~~
Lolx... Ok, think i can finally go practise those english songs liao~
Muahhahhahaha....
Quite happy.. Cos that day we were not chased off... If not for our last bus, we would have stayed even longer~ lolx...
Plus, JQ treated all of us that night!!!! So generous sia~!!! Thanks JQ!!
LAter when going home, then i realised that JQ lives in Bukit BAtok too~!!
And he takes the same buses as me to school~
What's more he's also from Swiss Cottage!!!!!!!!!!
But i've never seen him before all these while~
Lolx...
Life's just strange... You can live so near but never see each other before, yet you can meet a schoolmate in a foreign country.. In fact, 6-7 years ago when i was travelling with my family in Taiwan, YJ saw me in Xi Men Ding during his family trip there too lar~~~ When Wei told me that, i'm like huh?!?!?!?!!? So Bloody Qiao sia~ But too bad i have no interest in him, otherwise i would have thought it's like those typical korean dramas sia~ lolx... Why don't let me meet Jiro/Edison/any of my crushes instead?!?!?!?! (Crushes refering to current ones ok, not the past ones... my eyesight improved liao hor.. the past are just historical nightmares k...)
Sighs....
Anyway, just took a bath just now.. and realise my Mickey Mouse towel is tattered and torn liao~~~ full of holes now~ This good old Mickey Mouse towel has been with me for the past 7-8 years liao... and i really can't bear to bring it to the Land of Rubbish... Sighs...
Ok enough sighing liaoz, going to watch Bu Yi Shen Xiang now~
Haha...
Bye for now~~
10:16pm:
Oh yar, during kbox i also finally found out the title of my favourite Moulin Rouge song~ Your Song by Elton John..
One more thing.. i forgot to add.. i saw Kbox also got Josh Groban's Broken Vow wor~~
Ha... Enjoy!!
It was kind of impromptu, cos i only knew about it that evening.
Just happens that i'm also free
HAha...
As usual, somebody late for 1 hour.
Anyway, wanna share with you all one huge discovery~~
There are NEW ENGLISH SONGS in KBOX NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeap, your eyes aren't playing tricks on you~
After so many years of torture with only english oldies and cheapskate MTVs (you know, the typical corny MTVs with girls in bikinis running in parks and beaches kind..), they finally have New English Original MTVs!!!!!!!!!
Like the latest Big Girls Don't Cry, Wait For You, Makes Me Wonder and so on~~~
Lolx... Ok, think i can finally go practise those english songs liao~
Muahhahhahaha....
Quite happy.. Cos that day we were not chased off... If not for our last bus, we would have stayed even longer~ lolx...
Plus, JQ treated all of us that night!!!! So generous sia~!!! Thanks JQ!!
LAter when going home, then i realised that JQ lives in Bukit BAtok too~!!
And he takes the same buses as me to school~
What's more he's also from Swiss Cottage!!!!!!!!!!
But i've never seen him before all these while~
Lolx...
Life's just strange... You can live so near but never see each other before, yet you can meet a schoolmate in a foreign country.. In fact, 6-7 years ago when i was travelling with my family in Taiwan, YJ saw me in Xi Men Ding during his family trip there too lar~~~ When Wei told me that, i'm like huh?!?!?!?!!? So Bloody Qiao sia~ But too bad i have no interest in him, otherwise i would have thought it's like those typical korean dramas sia~ lolx... Why don't let me meet Jiro/Edison/any of my crushes instead?!?!?!?! (Crushes refering to current ones ok, not the past ones... my eyesight improved liao hor.. the past are just historical nightmares k...)
Sighs....
Anyway, just took a bath just now.. and realise my Mickey Mouse towel is tattered and torn liao~~~ full of holes now~ This good old Mickey Mouse towel has been with me for the past 7-8 years liao... and i really can't bear to bring it to the Land of Rubbish... Sighs...
Ok enough sighing liaoz, going to watch Bu Yi Shen Xiang now~
Haha...
Bye for now~~
10:16pm:
Oh yar, during kbox i also finally found out the title of my favourite Moulin Rouge song~ Your Song by Elton John..
One more thing.. i forgot to add.. i saw Kbox also got Josh Groban's Broken Vow wor~~
Ha... Enjoy!!
Sunday, October 21, 2007
19% addicted only wor~
Surprise!!
Thought i was crazy about facebook, logging in a few times daily, play for about 1 hr before logging out...
And the survey i took states that I'm only 19% addicted wor~~
Lolx~
Thought i was crazy about facebook, logging in a few times daily, play for about 1 hr before logging out...
And the survey i took states that I'm only 19% addicted wor~~
Lolx~
Saturday, October 20, 2007
The ever-changing me, myself and I
It's been a while since i last blogged..
Since today got some time, so i guess i can afford to crap a little here~ Heh...
Hmmm... think i've discovered something about myself lately...
That changing is my only constant~
I like changes~ Get sick of things easily...
In fact i never stick to something for long..
Be it style in clothes, shoes, bag, accessories, food, idols, habits and so on...
Almost everything!!
Even if sometimes i seem to stick to a particular food/habit/style, that's probably because i'm sick of changing for that period of time... And then continue changing again..
Some of my changes are the changes everyone goes through... Like changing image/styles according to the trends... As trends changes, you will notice changes in everyone's (or almost) fashion sense (like clothes, shoes, hairstyle, accessories etc etc..), tastes in movies/dramas/shows, food, idols..
Even if you are not one who follows closely to the trend, you would mostly change too~ I mean nobody would stick to the same brand and design of shirt or jeans forever right?
So everyone changes, it's just a matter of time that one changes... After all, time = changes, if no changes, then what is time??? So long as time exists, there'll be changes... lol... ok, i know it's crap here. Blame it on yt and especially ahgong who keep regularly bombarding me with such philosophical stuffs.
But anyway, i think my rate of change is faster than most people's bah. For example, clothes and shoes. I don't think i wear the same combination for more than 5 times.. mostly only once or twice. Uniforms not counted k...
Especially in my sleeping and eating habits... I don't think i have a fixed eating or sleeping habit. I can sleep at 10pm tonight, 11pm tomorrow night, 4am the next, 9 pm the following and 2am after that. Super fluctuating...
Same goes for my eating habits... I can eat breakfast at 10am today, 12noon tomorrow, 11am the next or sometimes just skip breakfast altogether. The portions for all three meals are also never the same. I can:
eat a lot for breakfast, skip lunch, eat a lot for dinner;
or skip breakfast, eat a lot for lunch and dinner;
or eat a lot for all 3 meals for a day/ or a couple of days;
or eat a little for all 3 meals for a day (never for a couple of days tho.. =X);
and so on.. basically what kinds of combi you can think of, i've tried before.. And it is always changing still...
Types of food i eat is also never constant... As long as it's within my budget, i would like and want to try every single item available~ lol... Not like some people who would prefer and only eat a certain type of cuisine (like chinese, or japanese, or western), or even a specific kind of dish only (like laksa.. yeah you know who i'm talking about...). But for me, i like anything and everything~ As long as it's nice and edible lar~ (duh!)I wouldn't mind what kind of cuisine it is or what category of food it belongs to -- shelled-seafood, fish, meats, vegetables, be it raw or cooked, cheap or expensive.. all i like! Ha! That's why buffets are the best, can try everything!!! Heh...
Due to my unfixed habits, my weight also fluctuate like siao~ There was once it was so drastic that i have lost 8 kgs within 1 month, stay roughly constant for 2-3 months, then gained (don't gasp!) 10 kilos within the next 2 months~ So within roughly half a year, my weight is like steeeep cosine curve sia~
Even till now, my weight keeps fluctuating, though not that drastically, within a 5 kg range. Like i may be X kg today; X+2 kg next week; X+3 kg the following; X+1 the next; X-2 the week after and so on.. no fixed rate~
Sighs.. looking at what i've written, sounds like i'm not leading a very healthy life sia~~ Oh man...
Or maybe it's not that i really like changes, it's just that i get sick of routines easily, and don't really like to confine myself to a fixed routine/habit/style... (No wonder i hate it when my GP tutor asked me to follow the fixed essay-writing "formula" while writing my GP essay~~)
BUT although i'm constantly changing (like a chameleon?? lol..), i don't really like changes in my surroundings.. Like for example:
When the forests and trees in bukit batok have been cleared for new houses, there would be a tinge of sadness in me. Though the new buildings looked pretty and all...i still miss and prefer the old messy forest.
When i first arrived at US, it's like spring(?), with most trees still bare, with dandelions covering the field, with flowers blooming on some trees. Then came summer, when the trees were covered with lush thick green leaves, when it was snowing dandelion seeds in the air and then gone after some time, when the flowers wiltered and were replaced with grass and leaves. All these changes made me feel sad too~~ making me long for the olden days...
When friendship changes, especially from good to bad. When friends started to know each other, everything was fun and happy. Then came problems, conflicts. Or even worse, the feeling just dies gradually and friends just drift like that.. It is often the case that i may be close to this friend for a period of time, and then became estrange after some time. I suppose this happens to most people bah~ At different stages of life, environment changes, people around you also changes, so naturally friends also changes. Though it's not a phenomenon that i would like, i've to admit that friends do come and go in life... Then i would feel sad again and reminisce about the previous friends i have and stuff... sighs...
Or when friends changes in terms of character or personality, felt that they are no longer the friend i initially know anymore... Then i would again miss their old characters that i am used to know.
When surrounding around me changes, i would also miss the past. Like i would miss my kindergarten, primary and secondary school days... i know that, in near future, i would miss my friends and my university days too... when working life starts, i can already predict my contact with my current group of friends would definitely be reduced. Just like how it is so with my kindergarten, pri, secondary, jc, and m1 friends.. Don't wanna grow up~!!!
I've always wondered why i always reminisce about the past most of the time.. Now i know. I think it's because i am quite resistant of changes in my surroundings, hate to keep up with the changes, hate the fact that what i used to know is no longer true...
Sighs... Keep changing myself but hate changes around me... Funny huh... Contradicting myself sia..
PS: Sorry for the abrupt ending... but i saw WH attacking me in CS from facebook le... disturb my mood for blogging le.. hmmm... he's gonna get it from me sia.. lolx... Ciao~~
Since today got some time, so i guess i can afford to crap a little here~ Heh...
Hmmm... think i've discovered something about myself lately...
That changing is my only constant~
I like changes~ Get sick of things easily...
In fact i never stick to something for long..
Be it style in clothes, shoes, bag, accessories, food, idols, habits and so on...
Almost everything!!
Even if sometimes i seem to stick to a particular food/habit/style, that's probably because i'm sick of changing for that period of time... And then continue changing again..
Some of my changes are the changes everyone goes through... Like changing image/styles according to the trends... As trends changes, you will notice changes in everyone's (or almost) fashion sense (like clothes, shoes, hairstyle, accessories etc etc..), tastes in movies/dramas/shows, food, idols..
Even if you are not one who follows closely to the trend, you would mostly change too~ I mean nobody would stick to the same brand and design of shirt or jeans forever right?
So everyone changes, it's just a matter of time that one changes... After all, time = changes, if no changes, then what is time??? So long as time exists, there'll be changes... lol... ok, i know it's crap here. Blame it on yt and especially ahgong who keep regularly bombarding me with such philosophical stuffs.
But anyway, i think my rate of change is faster than most people's bah. For example, clothes and shoes. I don't think i wear the same combination for more than 5 times.. mostly only once or twice. Uniforms not counted k...
Especially in my sleeping and eating habits... I don't think i have a fixed eating or sleeping habit. I can sleep at 10pm tonight, 11pm tomorrow night, 4am the next, 9 pm the following and 2am after that. Super fluctuating...
Same goes for my eating habits... I can eat breakfast at 10am today, 12noon tomorrow, 11am the next or sometimes just skip breakfast altogether. The portions for all three meals are also never the same. I can:
eat a lot for breakfast, skip lunch, eat a lot for dinner;
or skip breakfast, eat a lot for lunch and dinner;
or eat a lot for all 3 meals for a day/ or a couple of days;
or eat a little for all 3 meals for a day (never for a couple of days tho.. =X);
and so on.. basically what kinds of combi you can think of, i've tried before.. And it is always changing still...
Types of food i eat is also never constant... As long as it's within my budget, i would like and want to try every single item available~ lol... Not like some people who would prefer and only eat a certain type of cuisine (like chinese, or japanese, or western), or even a specific kind of dish only (like laksa.. yeah you know who i'm talking about...). But for me, i like anything and everything~ As long as it's nice and edible lar~ (duh!)I wouldn't mind what kind of cuisine it is or what category of food it belongs to -- shelled-seafood, fish, meats, vegetables, be it raw or cooked, cheap or expensive.. all i like! Ha! That's why buffets are the best, can try everything!!! Heh...
Due to my unfixed habits, my weight also fluctuate like siao~ There was once it was so drastic that i have lost 8 kgs within 1 month, stay roughly constant for 2-3 months, then gained (don't gasp!) 10 kilos within the next 2 months~ So within roughly half a year, my weight is like steeeep cosine curve sia~
Even till now, my weight keeps fluctuating, though not that drastically, within a 5 kg range. Like i may be X kg today; X+2 kg next week; X+3 kg the following; X+1 the next; X-2 the week after and so on.. no fixed rate~
Sighs.. looking at what i've written, sounds like i'm not leading a very healthy life sia~~ Oh man...
Or maybe it's not that i really like changes, it's just that i get sick of routines easily, and don't really like to confine myself to a fixed routine/habit/style... (No wonder i hate it when my GP tutor asked me to follow the fixed essay-writing "formula" while writing my GP essay~~)
BUT although i'm constantly changing (like a chameleon?? lol..), i don't really like changes in my surroundings.. Like for example:
When the forests and trees in bukit batok have been cleared for new houses, there would be a tinge of sadness in me. Though the new buildings looked pretty and all...i still miss and prefer the old messy forest.
When i first arrived at US, it's like spring(?), with most trees still bare, with dandelions covering the field, with flowers blooming on some trees. Then came summer, when the trees were covered with lush thick green leaves, when it was snowing dandelion seeds in the air and then gone after some time, when the flowers wiltered and were replaced with grass and leaves. All these changes made me feel sad too~~ making me long for the olden days...
When friendship changes, especially from good to bad. When friends started to know each other, everything was fun and happy. Then came problems, conflicts. Or even worse, the feeling just dies gradually and friends just drift like that.. It is often the case that i may be close to this friend for a period of time, and then became estrange after some time. I suppose this happens to most people bah~ At different stages of life, environment changes, people around you also changes, so naturally friends also changes. Though it's not a phenomenon that i would like, i've to admit that friends do come and go in life... Then i would feel sad again and reminisce about the previous friends i have and stuff... sighs...
Or when friends changes in terms of character or personality, felt that they are no longer the friend i initially know anymore... Then i would again miss their old characters that i am used to know.
When surrounding around me changes, i would also miss the past. Like i would miss my kindergarten, primary and secondary school days... i know that, in near future, i would miss my friends and my university days too... when working life starts, i can already predict my contact with my current group of friends would definitely be reduced. Just like how it is so with my kindergarten, pri, secondary, jc, and m1 friends.. Don't wanna grow up~!!!
I've always wondered why i always reminisce about the past most of the time.. Now i know. I think it's because i am quite resistant of changes in my surroundings, hate to keep up with the changes, hate the fact that what i used to know is no longer true...
Sighs... Keep changing myself but hate changes around me... Funny huh... Contradicting myself sia..
PS: Sorry for the abrupt ending... but i saw WH attacking me in CS from facebook le... disturb my mood for blogging le.. hmmm... he's gonna get it from me sia.. lolx... Ciao~~
Friday, October 12, 2007
Yesterday's French class is so pai-seh man~
Went into the class about 3-4 minutes late, and the teacher's usual chair was empty.
So i commented, " Eh, teacher not here yet ar?"
Suddenly everyone burst out laughing...
"???"
I looked around them, puzzled why they are laughing...
As i turned, only then i realised he's sitting in the midst of the other students....
Looking at me with his eyebrows raised...
Sighs~~~~
So paiseh!!!!!!
And i kept getting tongue tied during our french conversations lar...
Suei suei i get to pair with this super fluent and a bit arrogant guy...
He had to repeat his every sentence on average of 4-5 times before i understand what he's talking about...
SIGHSSS~!!!!!!!!!!
Je dois parler bien Français pendant la classe française suivante!!!!!
Today....
i'm gonna die soon... Super tired~
Yesterday only slept at 3 am after reading and analysing the brain-draining paper sia... This morning woke up early to complete my presentation parts~
Before presenting our Emotions presentation, our tutor mentioned,
"After this presentation, you should be able to see this obvious contradiction."
Me and yt looked at each other with blank looks...
Since when got contradiction???
We started to have a bad feeling about this...
Then throughout the whole presentation, whenever i looked at the tutor, his frown gets deeper and deeper... (When he usually nods his head for the other group presentation!)
At the end of our presentation, then he discussed with us...
"What this article is trying to say is that... ... So study 2 says that reappraisal of emotions has some effect on memory but study 3 states that reappraisal has no association with memory!! Such an obvious contradiction in between these 2 studies and yet this paper is still published~!!"
Now that he said it, this contradiction is indeed pretty obvious... Sighs... Why did we miss it???
Die.. he looked like he's in quite a bad mood, with his paper being rejected this morning plus the laksa was boiling in his stomach, AND now we actually missed out such an obvious error in the paper...
Due to mood congruency effect, bad mood = everything sucks.
Our presentation....
Can say is 凶多吉少 liao~~
Then later Adolescent tutorial is another brain-draining session lar...
Don't know how those people in my class can vomit out such out-of-the-world points for the discussion..
Emotion of the Day: Super Tired and Totally Disgusted
By the time we have our emotions lecture, i really need to support my head with a pencil case to keep it from falling le...
But fortunately, emotions lecture was quite interesting... with disgusting pictures of rotting bodies, dismembered body parts and funny jokes.. quite enjoyable actually.. Haha...
Okay... think i've got to go now~
Au revoir tous d'entre vous!!!
Went into the class about 3-4 minutes late, and the teacher's usual chair was empty.
So i commented, " Eh, teacher not here yet ar?"
Suddenly everyone burst out laughing...
"???"
I looked around them, puzzled why they are laughing...
As i turned, only then i realised he's sitting in the midst of the other students....
Looking at me with his eyebrows raised...
Sighs~~~~
So paiseh!!!!!!
And i kept getting tongue tied during our french conversations lar...
Suei suei i get to pair with this super fluent and a bit arrogant guy...
He had to repeat his every sentence on average of 4-5 times before i understand what he's talking about...
SIGHSSS~!!!!!!!!!!
Je dois parler bien Français pendant la classe française suivante!!!!!
Today....
i'm gonna die soon... Super tired~
Yesterday only slept at 3 am after reading and analysing the brain-draining paper sia... This morning woke up early to complete my presentation parts~
Before presenting our Emotions presentation, our tutor mentioned,
"After this presentation, you should be able to see this obvious contradiction."
Me and yt looked at each other with blank looks...
Since when got contradiction???
We started to have a bad feeling about this...
Then throughout the whole presentation, whenever i looked at the tutor, his frown gets deeper and deeper... (When he usually nods his head for the other group presentation!)
At the end of our presentation, then he discussed with us...
"What this article is trying to say is that... ... So study 2 says that reappraisal of emotions has some effect on memory but study 3 states that reappraisal has no association with memory!! Such an obvious contradiction in between these 2 studies and yet this paper is still published~!!"
Now that he said it, this contradiction is indeed pretty obvious... Sighs... Why did we miss it???
Die.. he looked like he's in quite a bad mood, with his paper being rejected this morning plus the laksa was boiling in his stomach, AND now we actually missed out such an obvious error in the paper...
Due to mood congruency effect, bad mood = everything sucks.
Our presentation....
Can say is 凶多吉少 liao~~
Then later Adolescent tutorial is another brain-draining session lar...
Don't know how those people in my class can vomit out such out-of-the-world points for the discussion..
Emotion of the Day: Super Tired and Totally Disgusted
By the time we have our emotions lecture, i really need to support my head with a pencil case to keep it from falling le...
But fortunately, emotions lecture was quite interesting... with disgusting pictures of rotting bodies, dismembered body parts and funny jokes.. quite enjoyable actually.. Haha...
Okay... think i've got to go now~
Au revoir tous d'entre vous!!!
Monday, October 08, 2007
Not moving after all...
Last week i was so surprised and super excited when my dad signed the contract lar~~
But today...
Sighs...
Guess i'm not moving after all...
Excited for nothing sia~
=S
But today...
Sighs...
Guess i'm not moving after all...
Excited for nothing sia~
=S
Friday, October 05, 2007
Bye term break...and Hello to stress week!!!
Term break came and went...
Sighs...
Started off well though..
Sun (23rd Sept)
Went to Kassey's house for a potluck gathering.. Most of the Cedar Point peeps were there. It was pretty great to see everyone again after so long.. Haha..
P.S. I remember we took a photo there... Whoever has the photo and is reading this... Send me e photos leh~~
Mon (24th Sept)
Went out to study with mf and ah gong.. Supposedly study session became a chatting session in the end.. Sighs.. And Woodlands is so ulu can... Faint~~
Then me and ah gong went to watch Ratouille. Hey not bad leh.. Just as the reviews reported.. I find it really nice~ Come to think of it, i find most movie cartoons quite cool man~ Lolx..
Tues to Wed (25th to 26th)
Very guiltily... i admit i did not study at all for these two days... Sighs..
Instead i watched the whole series of My Girl online...
REad a few pages of notes, then slaaaccckkk all the way...
Sighs...
Saturday and Sunday (29 & 30th Sept)
Mug with mf in school...
Then realised she had a built-in cam on her laptop~~!!
WAaahahaha...
So in the end....
Heh..
This week was hell week...
Starting from Wed...
Wed - French written test
Thurs - French Oral test AND Trauma Test
Fri (today) - Emotions Test
Totally lack of sleep man~
Slept like 2-3 am for those 3-4 days...
Especially today man~ Can feel my head is so drained liao...
So tired that when i'm reading my notes, i need to use my hand to support my head sia~
Lolx...
But glad it's half over...
Why half??
Because next week there's another test, a presentation plus have to research for our project meeting~
Siao liao...
Panda eyes are coming to haunt me again liao...
Sighs...
But don't know why my itchy fingers still clicked on the facebook bookmark...
I seriously need to quit facebook-ing sia~
=S
Sighs...
Started off well though..
Sun (23rd Sept)
Went to Kassey's house for a potluck gathering.. Most of the Cedar Point peeps were there. It was pretty great to see everyone again after so long.. Haha..
P.S. I remember we took a photo there... Whoever has the photo and is reading this... Send me e photos leh~~
Mon (24th Sept)
Went out to study with mf and ah gong.. Supposedly study session became a chatting session in the end.. Sighs.. And Woodlands is so ulu can... Faint~~
Then me and ah gong went to watch Ratouille. Hey not bad leh.. Just as the reviews reported.. I find it really nice~ Come to think of it, i find most movie cartoons quite cool man~ Lolx..
Tues to Wed (25th to 26th)
Very guiltily... i admit i did not study at all for these two days... Sighs..
Instead i watched the whole series of My Girl online...
And the more i watched, the more i find Lee Dong Wook irresistable sia~ Lolx...
Melts~~
Thurs (27th Sept)
Went kbox with mf and dr... Sing till so shuang... They din chase us out at all sia~ It's finally mf said wanna go home le then we leave de...
Lolx...
Friday (28th Sept)
REad a few pages of notes, then slaaaccckkk all the way...
Sighs...
Saturday and Sunday (29 & 30th Sept)
Mug with mf in school...
Then realised she had a built-in cam on her laptop~~!!
WAaahahaha...
So in the end....
Heh..
This week was hell week...
Starting from Wed...
Wed - French written test
Thurs - French Oral test AND Trauma Test
Fri (today) - Emotions Test
Totally lack of sleep man~
Slept like 2-3 am for those 3-4 days...
Especially today man~ Can feel my head is so drained liao...
So tired that when i'm reading my notes, i need to use my hand to support my head sia~
Lolx...
But glad it's half over...
Why half??
Because next week there's another test, a presentation plus have to research for our project meeting~
Siao liao...
Panda eyes are coming to haunt me again liao...
Sighs...
But don't know why my itchy fingers still clicked on the facebook bookmark...
I seriously need to quit facebook-ing sia~
=S
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